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so apparently Carly and I are destined to not go to a party.... it was canceled... and instead.. I ended up at a party with people like Klee Bailey Jon Andy Stacey and so on... I like them... but we aren't friends... me saying I like them is a lot more than any of them could ever say about me... they just don't care if I'm there... I make no difference to them... end of story... it was let down cuz I got out of work sooo early... the first time IN SO FUCKING LONG... but John said the party got canceled... and he was already with them and nobody called me and told me anything... but eeeeeeeveryone called John's house to tell him there was a different party going down....... so yeah... thanks for that... it was much appreciated... the thought that is... that never ran through anybody's head... cuz nobody thinks about me in situations like that... literally nobody... even my boyfriend...but w/e.... I think I'm done trying to make everyone be my friend again... cuz it'll never happen... it just won't... and I'm done getting my hopes up... what a let down
I am so sick of work... who isn't?... I just wish I could be excited for ONCE to be there... but I never am... cuz everytime I am... something happens to fuck it up... I am so sick of everyone there... being unappreciated... I fucking love some of those servers though... if I were older I would make three of them be my best fucking friends... but they go out and drink... and don't live here... and it sucks a lot... cuz no joke... they kick ass.. too bad some of them do coke.. like I don't care.. it just makes me feel bad for them... cuz it's addictive as fuck... and expensive as fuck...
I asked to visit Josh... my parents suck... they didn't tell me yes or no and eventhough I asked them to call me or leave a note or something... I got nothing... I know the answer... it's gunna be nooo you caaan't...they're boys and you shouldn't be staying in their dorm... they are so dumb in so many ways... and I will be so insanely mad if they really don't let me go... and ever more mad if they say I only can if they go... cuz if they say I can't go without them that means I'm probably gunna end going with them cuz if I go... well then I don't wanna go anymore... they'll be like why? cuz all you wanna do is have sex and drink and do drugs... aaaaand it'll basically be a wasted trip cuz I'll have a fuckign babysitter and won't be able to do anything
soooo I'm gunna suck out at psych... I already got a 70 on the first test... there are only like 10 of them... and I studied... I ACTUALLY studied... for the first time in years probably... but I can't focus... and it's in the middle of my fucking day and I can't switch or drop or anything and IT SUCKS
I got a parking ticket... fuck that... I didn't have the right sticker... but they never sent me the fucking right one!... they say it's cuz my mom never paid for it... but Mitchell got one... and she pays for that kinda shit all at the same time and whatever... so they made me pay $30 for the pass and $5 for the ticket... cuz the ticket was valid cuz technically it was MY fault... w/e... I hate MCC... my one friend Kevin got a letter saying he moved so they didn't have the write address to send him his pass so he would have to go pick it up at the traffic office place thing..... yes... they SENT HIM a letter telling him they could not SEND HIM a letter.... riiiight... and when he went to go pick it up.... he had to go to a completely different office where they told him they didn't have ti ready for him... score 2 for MCC... they also have not sent me a bill for my recently added class.... and if I don't get a grade for it... someone WILL die...
I miss John :-(
and I have to wake up early to go see him tomorrow... I promised... sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo BYE
I am so sick of work... who isn't?... I just wish I could be excited for ONCE to be there... but I never am... cuz everytime I am... something happens to fuck it up... I am so sick of everyone there... being unappreciated... I fucking love some of those servers though... if I were older I would make three of them be my best fucking friends... but they go out and drink... and don't live here... and it sucks a lot... cuz no joke... they kick ass.. too bad some of them do coke.. like I don't care.. it just makes me feel bad for them... cuz it's addictive as fuck... and expensive as fuck...
I asked to visit Josh... my parents suck... they didn't tell me yes or no and eventhough I asked them to call me or leave a note or something... I got nothing... I know the answer... it's gunna be nooo you caaan't...they're boys and you shouldn't be staying in their dorm... they are so dumb in so many ways... and I will be so insanely mad if they really don't let me go... and ever more mad if they say I only can if they go... cuz if they say I can't go without them that means I'm probably gunna end going with them cuz if I go... well then I don't wanna go anymore... they'll be like why? cuz all you wanna do is have sex and drink and do drugs... aaaaand it'll basically be a wasted trip cuz I'll have a fuckign babysitter and won't be able to do anything
soooo I'm gunna suck out at psych... I already got a 70 on the first test... there are only like 10 of them... and I studied... I ACTUALLY studied... for the first time in years probably... but I can't focus... and it's in the middle of my fucking day and I can't switch or drop or anything and IT SUCKS
I got a parking ticket... fuck that... I didn't have the right sticker... but they never sent me the fucking right one!... they say it's cuz my mom never paid for it... but Mitchell got one... and she pays for that kinda shit all at the same time and whatever... so they made me pay $30 for the pass and $5 for the ticket... cuz the ticket was valid cuz technically it was MY fault... w/e... I hate MCC... my one friend Kevin got a letter saying he moved so they didn't have the write address to send him his pass so he would have to go pick it up at the traffic office place thing..... yes... they SENT HIM a letter telling him they could not SEND HIM a letter.... riiiight... and when he went to go pick it up.... he had to go to a completely different office where they told him they didn't have ti ready for him... score 2 for MCC... they also have not sent me a bill for my recently added class.... and if I don't get a grade for it... someone WILL die...
I miss John :-(
and I have to wake up early to go see him tomorrow... I promised... sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo BYE