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Basically, I hate this situation with a passion.
And I hate how everytime I see him I feel really depressed after.
Oh, btw, I see him practically everyday.
I really hate how I told him that I loved him, how much I cared about him, and how I've never cared for another guy like I have for him.
These are all things I keep bottled up inside, and I don't let out.
Oh, I let out a lot that night though.
I guess that's what alcohol does to you.
A lot of shit I don't normally say, you know, like some of my deepest secrets.
I wonder how happy his girlfriend would be if she knew how much I liked him. Oh wait! She would be even happier if she knew that he liked me as well.
I mean, you know, even though he did before. Since, I dunno, we've been together before.
Oh wow, she would be SUPER happy to know that he always asks me to kiss him and shit.
And how excited will she be once she finds out that we've slept in the same bed together? TWICE.
And how he would brush the hair out of my face and try to get me to cuddle with him. About how he told me he really cares about me. About how he wants to break up with her.
About how it didn't matter if we hooked up, because he doesn't love her.
ugh I don't FUCKING know what to do anymore with this SHIT!!!! FUCK
And I hate how everytime I see him I feel really depressed after.
Oh, btw, I see him practically everyday.
I really hate how I told him that I loved him, how much I cared about him, and how I've never cared for another guy like I have for him.
These are all things I keep bottled up inside, and I don't let out.
Oh, I let out a lot that night though.
I guess that's what alcohol does to you.
A lot of shit I don't normally say, you know, like some of my deepest secrets.
I wonder how happy his girlfriend would be if she knew how much I liked him. Oh wait! She would be even happier if she knew that he liked me as well.
I mean, you know, even though he did before. Since, I dunno, we've been together before.
Oh wow, she would be SUPER happy to know that he always asks me to kiss him and shit.
And how excited will she be once she finds out that we've slept in the same bed together? TWICE.
And how he would brush the hair out of my face and try to get me to cuddle with him. About how he told me he really cares about me. About how he wants to break up with her.
About how it didn't matter if we hooked up, because he doesn't love her.
ugh I don't FUCKING know what to do anymore with this SHIT!!!! FUCK