"you'll realize later that much like everything else, I'm right"
My life right now is in between pathetic and awesome (I guess it depends on who you ask),I'm in some state that really doesn't make sense to me. I woke up 1 with a hangover and began drinking at 3, and then I walked around Philly half drunk and went to the Ben Franklin mueseam that way. Head Automatica didn't play cause the singer was sick and in the hospital for some reason, and we didn't see KOS because we didnt want to wait. I'm sober now and I dont really know what to make of anything. I don't know what I'm doing tonight, but I can guess that it will involve me staying in alone, which seems to be the norm on Saturday nights. There are so many fucked up things in my life right now, and it just seems like its going to take forever to fix things, or forget them. All things considered I'm fucking lost right now, I know what I want, and I know what I need but I don't know how to get either. I don't think that I'm going to come home on the holidays for long, because I just don't want to go back, I think that I'm going to try to go to this lemur perserve in Florida for a couple weeks to do an internship, and see if I can get some school credit for it. That would be fucking sweet. Everyone is reasuring me that I'm doing the right thing, and I just don't know anymore. I dont think that this makes sense to anyone but me right now, and is nothing more than the ramblings of a mad man.