Yesterday Mark told me his Brain hurts, and it made me stop dead in my tracks.
Well these past two days have been interesting. Now I know all this dismal talk was all about. The past couple months have been rather obnoxious, Living with Two huskies in an apartment is really a bad idea, and it got to me enough that I just gave up trying to keep anything in order and moved everything into my room. I have been going on HBO series swings, and am on the Fourth season of The Saprano's at the moment.
So on Monday night Rachel wasnt home for whatever reson and Gypsy destroyed the house while I was sleeping, I woke up in the late afternoon and was schmucking about in my room with Mark, and Rachel starts slamming on the door, inturupting mark and with a jump, and starts yelling at me that I have to clean up that shit, where I tell her hell no, because it was her dogs shit.
I didn't notice that what he had done was torn apart the trash I had forgotten to bring out from my room, which i did promptly clean up when I got home that night when I realized what happened. So by then there was this furiously wirtten letter ranting about not having enough money, which wasnt an issue before she started all this up. She went on in the letter babbling on about a whole bunch of mean shit like the fact I dont have a car, Well i do have a car, but its broken.
Yeah I obtained myself a 90' Chevy barretta, nothing fantastic but will probably at least last me till next winter. The car was fine, but the Key hole was busted, so my sister had been hotwiring the fucker for the past couple months, then decided to get a little Volkswagon that looks like a tiny white space pod. My Dads fixing that for me and putting on a new muffler, but his arthritis has been really bad lately int his weird weather.
Anyways, SO the conclusion of the letter was that she wanted to break the lease, and get herself a townhouse, which is kinda dumb considering she is breaking a lease int he middle, and making a new one? On Nanny's pay which is good, but she's planning on getting it herself which is anywhere from 800-1200 bucks a month plus all the utilities, since thats not included like it is with an apartment. Not counting the fee's of bying out a discounted lease to break it and not compeltely fuck herself on credit. Thats a good 1,500 dollors she is going to have to pay on top of not getting any of the security deposit her dogs ate.
So, I don't want to break my lease and I called the office, and am meeting with the property manager tomorrow at 2, because I don't want to break the lease, and they are going to give me my options, and perhaps moving me into a one bedroom, I just probably cant afford that, AND a lease break, so Im going to see what they are willing to offer me. That or I can count my losses, and break off the lease, regroup at home, and do it all over again.
I've been thinking it over and right now, i do have a lot of options, but not much money.
Next option is if my dad is going away for a good long while soon enough , and is really planning on supporting my Mom, and this house is already paid off I can come back here and try this again with a couple, G's saved and half a diploma under my belt. because i dont want my Mom to be alone either. I love her more then anyone else, and who else is she going to come home to when my Dad leaves. So I dunno, I will see. Im not going to choose anything till I talkt o the property manager and see what she's going to offer for a one bedroom place Shinji, Loki and I can be happy and live quietly. That sounds really good to me too.
Mostly it's just I want to lve my own lifestyle unintruded, and if I move back home I could quit smoking cigarettes, since if long confessed to my Mom the true motivations of my individual lifestyle if you know what I mean...
Bah, If anything Mark is moving in with Sizemore and his gigantic place, above Johnny, all his friends he's had since kindergarden and shit. So I can just hang out in Elgin and stay at home with my Ma.
I really like Mark, i respect mark, hehe. He Respects me, and we are both highly individualistic, or something. He somehow got me to spill my guts the other night, and we had a really good talk, we are comming from similar places, and he is a really good man. Im really exited to see what happenes next with us, and Im being really careful, and doing things right, with him, with myself, and most of all with us. So, well see if I can handle it, but the more settled I get the better feeling i have about it. Damnit I really need some pictures.
And Tony's car broke, so I dont have a daytime puffinf pal for this week :(.
So on Monday night Rachel wasnt home for whatever reson and Gypsy destroyed the house while I was sleeping, I woke up in the late afternoon and was schmucking about in my room with Mark, and Rachel starts slamming on the door, inturupting mark and with a jump, and starts yelling at me that I have to clean up that shit, where I tell her hell no, because it was her dogs shit.
I didn't notice that what he had done was torn apart the trash I had forgotten to bring out from my room, which i did promptly clean up when I got home that night when I realized what happened. So by then there was this furiously wirtten letter ranting about not having enough money, which wasnt an issue before she started all this up. She went on in the letter babbling on about a whole bunch of mean shit like the fact I dont have a car, Well i do have a car, but its broken.
Yeah I obtained myself a 90' Chevy barretta, nothing fantastic but will probably at least last me till next winter. The car was fine, but the Key hole was busted, so my sister had been hotwiring the fucker for the past couple months, then decided to get a little Volkswagon that looks like a tiny white space pod. My Dads fixing that for me and putting on a new muffler, but his arthritis has been really bad lately int his weird weather.
Anyways, SO the conclusion of the letter was that she wanted to break the lease, and get herself a townhouse, which is kinda dumb considering she is breaking a lease int he middle, and making a new one? On Nanny's pay which is good, but she's planning on getting it herself which is anywhere from 800-1200 bucks a month plus all the utilities, since thats not included like it is with an apartment. Not counting the fee's of bying out a discounted lease to break it and not compeltely fuck herself on credit. Thats a good 1,500 dollors she is going to have to pay on top of not getting any of the security deposit her dogs ate.
So, I don't want to break my lease and I called the office, and am meeting with the property manager tomorrow at 2, because I don't want to break the lease, and they are going to give me my options, and perhaps moving me into a one bedroom, I just probably cant afford that, AND a lease break, so Im going to see what they are willing to offer me. That or I can count my losses, and break off the lease, regroup at home, and do it all over again.
I've been thinking it over and right now, i do have a lot of options, but not much money.
Next option is if my dad is going away for a good long while soon enough , and is really planning on supporting my Mom, and this house is already paid off I can come back here and try this again with a couple, G's saved and half a diploma under my belt. because i dont want my Mom to be alone either. I love her more then anyone else, and who else is she going to come home to when my Dad leaves. So I dunno, I will see. Im not going to choose anything till I talkt o the property manager and see what she's going to offer for a one bedroom place Shinji, Loki and I can be happy and live quietly. That sounds really good to me too.
Mostly it's just I want to lve my own lifestyle unintruded, and if I move back home I could quit smoking cigarettes, since if long confessed to my Mom the true motivations of my individual lifestyle if you know what I mean...
Bah, If anything Mark is moving in with Sizemore and his gigantic place, above Johnny, all his friends he's had since kindergarden and shit. So I can just hang out in Elgin and stay at home with my Ma.
I really like Mark, i respect mark, hehe. He Respects me, and we are both highly individualistic, or something. He somehow got me to spill my guts the other night, and we had a really good talk, we are comming from similar places, and he is a really good man. Im really exited to see what happenes next with us, and Im being really careful, and doing things right, with him, with myself, and most of all with us. So, well see if I can handle it, but the more settled I get the better feeling i have about it. Damnit I really need some pictures.
And Tony's car broke, so I dont have a daytime puffinf pal for this week :(.