Why me
Ok I have a new friend female who tells me she wants to be with me but can not as she is a swinger and the rules are that if she plays her partner must have someone to play with. We flirt and once cybered because she needed to and I was the only friend up at the time. She was finding excuses to not be with me so I asked to back off the sexual side we could flirt online but nothing going to happen in real life. Also told her it was up to her how far online it went. She kept flirting and did a couple of cam shows. Now she does "play" with my best friend who does not mind my flirting. Starting last Thursday my body and soul cried out for some form of love I turned to her as she did say she wanted to play on line and was turned down cold. It hurt a lot tease me fine flirt ok if you want to but please do not let me think for one brief time that you want to play with me when all you want is my friend. I can accept that no woman out there wants to touch me or have me got that but why try to lead me on is it just to hurt me? during this time a lady I love and respect (and want) and I know she does not return the feelings was telling me of a sceen between her and another girl. Got the I do not want you and do not think of me as a sexual being but here is a fantasy you have had let me tell you how it was. Gods above and below I wanted to go elsewhere; still do. Body and soul are still screaming and no one hears but my friend and he can do nothing to help. You who know me (I doubt anyone will ever read this) I have cried 3 times since Thuirsday still have to hold them back. I sound like a self pitting fool but as I told others I have known several women whoi would sleep with anyone but me. I am ther only male to go to a swingers club and be told by 2 women at different time I looked bored.