Ranting @}---
Yay for venting!
first off I can't stand racist fuckers. that the hell dose color matter? why can't i date someone who is a diffrent color and why dose it matter to you anyways? I mean there is a line between joking and being a fucking racist asshole.. yeah at one time i thought it was wrong to date someone of a diffent race i was 14! and was rasied that way i 'm sorry but now that i know that its not wrong. I do love a mixed guy and i don't fucking care who knows it i know that someone would say something one day but i didn't expect it do be someone that i was friends with and i really didn't expect my family who was also all raised in the deep south to except it before my friends who where all raised in a socitiy where black and white relations are common.. It just pisses me off that some poeple are so closed minded. people can't open there eyes and see that there is nothign diffrent between me and someone who is black,green, purple, blue or yellow. you need to take a step down because you are no better than me or anyone around you and you should open up you eyes and see that...
secondly, i'm sick of being used
I'm am nothign but nice to everyone and everytime i do something good it turns around on me.. why is it that people are such assholes.. i mean its making me want to be the bigest bitch ever and i can be.. when someone does something nice for you. and really when they were so fucking nice to you that that would prolly die for you and over and over again you break their heart. you make me cry on a day to day. dammit why can't you see that i love you more than anyone will ever love you! and you fuck me over again and again... i'm sick of it i sware i'm about to cut you off i don't want to b/c i do love you and that its the fucking truth but really treat me like i'm am human please!
sigh
now this is just me thinking don't worry no more of my rants..
I'm really scared last night i was laying on my "chair bed" and i was thinkign abotu how strong of feelings it have toward jordan and i'm really scared I mean i just don't want to get hurt i know he would never try to hurt me but you know when you get in to something and it get serious and you just freak out b/c it is serious and you love each other and your like wow how did thta happend when did that happen what the hell is going on. wow its like tha last person i was really this serious with it broke my heart and i feel like the little peices of my heart are being pasted back togeather like a kindergardner doing arts and crafts on wensday in art class its all like being put together in weird diffrent ways that it was torn.. and there are new parts that wern't there before its hard to explain and you that are reading this are prolly think shanna what the hell are you talking about.... you are crazy... and i know i am.. :)
my friends , you know who you are, i love you guys you make me that happiest chick ever i hope you know that even when i'm upset you make me smile.. when stupid fucking dumbass people hurt my feelings you know the right things to say or you make me play mario party or animal crossing and its all better :) I love you guys thank you times a million and sometimes i forget to tell you and sometimes i feel like i don't tell you enough that you are amazing people but you are ech and everyone of you you all have a peice of that fucked up kindergardener made heart please don't rip your part of it b/c i'm paying that 5 year old alot of money to past all that back togeather it was a big mess and she demanded alot to do it she is a sassy little girl :) haha I love ya'll u make me the luckiest chick ever... please know that and spread the word :)
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Shanna banana
AKA
Swedish!
first off I can't stand racist fuckers. that the hell dose color matter? why can't i date someone who is a diffrent color and why dose it matter to you anyways? I mean there is a line between joking and being a fucking racist asshole.. yeah at one time i thought it was wrong to date someone of a diffent race i was 14! and was rasied that way i 'm sorry but now that i know that its not wrong. I do love a mixed guy and i don't fucking care who knows it i know that someone would say something one day but i didn't expect it do be someone that i was friends with and i really didn't expect my family who was also all raised in the deep south to except it before my friends who where all raised in a socitiy where black and white relations are common.. It just pisses me off that some poeple are so closed minded. people can't open there eyes and see that there is nothign diffrent between me and someone who is black,green, purple, blue or yellow. you need to take a step down because you are no better than me or anyone around you and you should open up you eyes and see that...
secondly, i'm sick of being used
I'm am nothign but nice to everyone and everytime i do something good it turns around on me.. why is it that people are such assholes.. i mean its making me want to be the bigest bitch ever and i can be.. when someone does something nice for you. and really when they were so fucking nice to you that that would prolly die for you and over and over again you break their heart. you make me cry on a day to day. dammit why can't you see that i love you more than anyone will ever love you! and you fuck me over again and again... i'm sick of it i sware i'm about to cut you off i don't want to b/c i do love you and that its the fucking truth but really treat me like i'm am human please!
sigh
now this is just me thinking don't worry no more of my rants..
I'm really scared last night i was laying on my "chair bed" and i was thinkign abotu how strong of feelings it have toward jordan and i'm really scared I mean i just don't want to get hurt i know he would never try to hurt me but you know when you get in to something and it get serious and you just freak out b/c it is serious and you love each other and your like wow how did thta happend when did that happen what the hell is going on. wow its like tha last person i was really this serious with it broke my heart and i feel like the little peices of my heart are being pasted back togeather like a kindergardner doing arts and crafts on wensday in art class its all like being put together in weird diffrent ways that it was torn.. and there are new parts that wern't there before its hard to explain and you that are reading this are prolly think shanna what the hell are you talking about.... you are crazy... and i know i am.. :)
my friends , you know who you are, i love you guys you make me that happiest chick ever i hope you know that even when i'm upset you make me smile.. when stupid fucking dumbass people hurt my feelings you know the right things to say or you make me play mario party or animal crossing and its all better :) I love you guys thank you times a million and sometimes i forget to tell you and sometimes i feel like i don't tell you enough that you are amazing people but you are ech and everyone of you you all have a peice of that fucked up kindergardener made heart please don't rip your part of it b/c i'm paying that 5 year old alot of money to past all that back togeather it was a big mess and she demanded alot to do it she is a sassy little girl :) haha I love ya'll u make me the luckiest chick ever... please know that and spread the word :)
<3333333333
Shanna banana
AKA
Swedish!