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I have not updated in a long long time, but I had a sudden urge and I needed to deal with it.
You know how songs can make your feel so nostalgic it makes your chest hurt? Well, for some reason, Ratatat does that for me. I know, right? if you konw them, that doesn't seem feasible. But for real. Morgan called me, hanging out with Shaina. So there's two people I really miss, and they're at a club playing "Crips". Seriously, when was the last time you heard that in a club? NEVER, for me. And I suddenly remembered how I used to listen to that song A LOT in Chicago, while walking to the EL, while riding the bus, while walking downtown, anything really. And I got that chest tightness feeling.
I love UM, I really do, but sometimes being in Ann Arbor again makes me feel like I've moved backwards a bit. I always feel like it's silly to get all discontented and things. Especially since I'm a "the grass is always greener" kinda gal. But it isn't unreasonable to think that, after 22 years (give or take) in the same area one might start to get restless. I'm already planning my escape. Chicago is the ultimate goal. Perhaps other cities will come in between, maybe others will follow, but I know I have to get back there. I like it b/c it isnt stagnant. It won't be the same as when I lived there. The people will have changed (either my moving or just growing and changing), I may not live in the same area, hell, I probably won't even know any of the same people. But that's why Chicago works: there's something keeping you there other than the people. It's the possibilities. Ann Arbor....is amazing. It is. But, somewhere deep down, when you live here, the only thing you can hold onto are your old memories, the people you used to know, situations you used to understand. When that changes, everyone still tries to hold on, but it isn't right.
In other news, I am trying to mix it up a bit by doing some more activities. I'm playing violin again, taking ballet again, and NOT working retail(hurrah!). And there's always the fashionable Shei Magazine.
Ever notice there isn't a post I DON'T talk about my love for Morgan and Chicago?
You know how songs can make your feel so nostalgic it makes your chest hurt? Well, for some reason, Ratatat does that for me. I know, right? if you konw them, that doesn't seem feasible. But for real. Morgan called me, hanging out with Shaina. So there's two people I really miss, and they're at a club playing "Crips". Seriously, when was the last time you heard that in a club? NEVER, for me. And I suddenly remembered how I used to listen to that song A LOT in Chicago, while walking to the EL, while riding the bus, while walking downtown, anything really. And I got that chest tightness feeling.
I love UM, I really do, but sometimes being in Ann Arbor again makes me feel like I've moved backwards a bit. I always feel like it's silly to get all discontented and things. Especially since I'm a "the grass is always greener" kinda gal. But it isn't unreasonable to think that, after 22 years (give or take) in the same area one might start to get restless. I'm already planning my escape. Chicago is the ultimate goal. Perhaps other cities will come in between, maybe others will follow, but I know I have to get back there. I like it b/c it isnt stagnant. It won't be the same as when I lived there. The people will have changed (either my moving or just growing and changing), I may not live in the same area, hell, I probably won't even know any of the same people. But that's why Chicago works: there's something keeping you there other than the people. It's the possibilities. Ann Arbor....is amazing. It is. But, somewhere deep down, when you live here, the only thing you can hold onto are your old memories, the people you used to know, situations you used to understand. When that changes, everyone still tries to hold on, but it isn't right.
In other news, I am trying to mix it up a bit by doing some more activities. I'm playing violin again, taking ballet again, and NOT working retail(hurrah!). And there's always the fashionable Shei Magazine.
Ever notice there isn't a post I DON'T talk about my love for Morgan and Chicago?