Letting Go

[lacidawn1013]

Last night I went to watch Jacobs new band play. They are SO GOOD! That Michelle girl was there. The whole night was so weird. I walked up to him to say hey and he just kinda looked at me. He said something like "you look tan" and i said "you look like a rockstar!" He laughed and that was that for about 5 min. I sat back there with roommate and just talked to people who were back there. The whole night he didnt really talk to michelle much and i dont know if that is because i was there. I was sitting there watching him and his brother and his brothers wife talk and interact. I use to want ot be apart of that so much! I use to want to just sit around back stage of one of their concerts and just be so happy! I realized last night that I really dont want that. I really dont care to be around that, and around them for very long. We had something amazing! But i think its about obvious thatwe are both moving on!
At the same time there is this Sigma guy that has been asking around about me. I DONT WANT A RELATIONSHIP! Its almost like i dont want to even bother getting to know anyone else, and then i realize how stupid that is! The STUPIDEST thing is that his name is Jon... that would make the 6th Jon i have "talked" to and if anything happens there, the fourth that i have kissed. He knows who Thursday is and so thats a plus. I told Andrea (mutual firend) that he needs to know i dont want anything but that i wouldnt mind hanging out sometime! Grrrrrr
I want to go to church!