Things......
Ok.... so.... Last night i couldnt sleep... so many things were going in and out of my mind! One was this whole Joel thing. We talked for a really long time last night. i am pretty sure it was the longest i have ever talked to him on the phone. Whenever we started talking about what we did that day and he goes "Laci, Your day doesnt intrest me as much as you." I didnt really understand what he was talking about... i mean i had a good day! He started talking about how he wants to get to know me as well as anyone. I dont know why but that comment kinda freaked me out. Then it hit me. When we joke around about stuff like "getting it on" (dont draw any conclusions... its just talk) that doesn t get to me. When he said "I love you" for the soul purpose of freaking me out... it didnt phase me. When we talk about where we will be a year from now, and if we will keep in touch... I could talk about that all day... Even last night when he asked me what is one thing i dont want him to know... It was so easy for me to answer. But its like when we talk about as simple as getting to know me, i think i honestly get scared. Then whenever I started to tell him things... simple things like who i looked up to the most, the time in my life when i was the happiest.... things like that.. It was weird i mean i told him everythign he wanted to know.. its just so scary to have people know so much about me. So last night i was going to bed and i was listing all the things i love about Joel... After i listed a list probably longer than any guy i have ever dated... or talked to... I asked myself if all of his qualities were worth the things i would be missing if we decided to try a long distance thing. After my first three weeks here... im beginning to think that there are only a few things worth giving up the fun here... Its just so amazing and the people here are so great! I just dont want to do the thing i did with Jacob last year. I have to get started on my paper! Ill talk to you later!