Yesterday!!!
Ok so Grant comes over yesterday and we start talking about the past and stuff. I think this was good because it gave me a chance to tell him a few things. We talked about how his little thing with Liz didnt hurt me dear as badly as Jenny... and i got him to understand why. There were just so many things they were left unsaid, that needed to be said. Toward the end of our "hang out time" He asked if i wanted to go jam sometime. I told him i would love to... but before we start hanging out that much i had to let him know that there isnt now nor will there ever again be anythign between us. He told me that it wasnt fair for me to just push the idea out of my head completely... and i said it wasnt really fair for him to expect me not too. I basically just said that we had too much of a past and i am not strong enough to risk everything i have worked for.
While at work, all i could think about was Joel. I dont know why, its not like i know him to well, but i was just thinking about all the funny things he did, and how easy he was to talk to. Haha... When we were driving around my phone rang and it was one of my friends i didnt want to talk to at the time... so i didnt answer it. He said "geeze, i was gonna ask for you number, but if you didnt answer it would totally bum me out." Ask for my number??? Haha... I dont know, i guess the whole group of those guys are adorable... and i completely get along with the girls too! i wish they could move to OKC with me.
I am going to camp today! I get to see all the people i love! Except Jacob because he is a real life rockstar and plays guitar for a band called Subseven.. who is touring on the cornerstone tour. Thats a Tootho and Nail sponsered event, and Jake is there! Im so proud of him... and i cant wait until i can say "He see that rock star guitarist up there.... i was his first 18 year old kiss!"
While at work, all i could think about was Joel. I dont know why, its not like i know him to well, but i was just thinking about all the funny things he did, and how easy he was to talk to. Haha... When we were driving around my phone rang and it was one of my friends i didnt want to talk to at the time... so i didnt answer it. He said "geeze, i was gonna ask for you number, but if you didnt answer it would totally bum me out." Ask for my number??? Haha... I dont know, i guess the whole group of those guys are adorable... and i completely get along with the girls too! i wish they could move to OKC with me.
I am going to camp today! I get to see all the people i love! Except Jacob because he is a real life rockstar and plays guitar for a band called Subseven.. who is touring on the cornerstone tour. Thats a Tootho and Nail sponsered event, and Jake is there! Im so proud of him... and i cant wait until i can say "He see that rock star guitarist up there.... i was his first 18 year old kiss!"