i think its me

[lachrymose_zack]

so...i was going by myspace top 8s and stuff
which btw tom, that was the dumbest thing ever

i got to realizing, i had tons of friends, really really close friends
now, like i have maybe 3 or 4 friends i consider close
most of the people i used to chill with, i dont even say hi to
and of course, the biggie, i lost three of my best friends or who i thought were my best friends
let me just put it out there since everyone else on lj does
but rick, riddle, and j...
i dont blame them though...i especially dont blame j, cause me and him wouldve parted eventually since hes a senior
but i mean...riddles parting really hurt, but i guess it doesnt matter

then ofcourse theres michael and debbie who i havent so much as said hi to on a daily basis
and ofcourse, vanessa who dropped out, joseph but i guess me and him are cool since we have 4th together...

charlotte, andres, valerie- always stuck by me even now

co-worker/great friend- carro
lunchbox goes to another school but me and him are tight

i got some good friends in the process of losing though
oscar, noel, mike(cause we were never really close before)-the band
christian and julian are cool cats
idk...i guess i turned real emo all of the sudden
realizing, im not a very big part of anyones life really...minus charlotte

i like the feeling of wantedness...i miss parts of last year in a way

guess i just miss having alot of friends...i am a "mean kid" just like katlin said

sorry for this entry if it pisses you off eh.....deal