Just some recent thoughts
When I look in the mirror today, I no longer see "the girl that loved him" or "his girl". Thanks to you, I see Brandi again. The girl who orgasms during pivitol lighting and music moments. The girl who finds a deeper meaning in almost every song. The girl who takes the whole world in like a sponge in hopes that she will learn everything that there is to know about culture, spirituality, gender boundaries, sexuality and everything inbetween. The girl that wants to seem tough, but just wants to cuddle when we're alone at night. She loves shoes and handbags, as a girl might, but she also loves the environment and homemade gifts. She can appreciate a couture label, but she doesn't need them to survive. She wants to "go green" in every aspect possible, but not just for show. She believes in pereservation.
Her past is somewhat dotted, but she refuses to let it affect her present. Her present is somewhat slow, but she is pushing on to enjoy her future. She is not sure why things have happened to her the way that they did, and she's not sure that she deserved them. But there always seems to be something better along the way. Someone to pick up the pieces and put together a whole new person with a whole new outlook.
I believe that I can trust you, and that sounds absolutely crazy to me at this point. I don't know that I should be trusting anyone right now, but I know that I can trust in you. You see things about me that I don't even see sometimes. You're so much on my level, that it seems too good to be true. I used to think that the standards that I set for myself would never be met and I would have to eventually just settle. But to be quite honest, you meet those standards. You might even be above them. I can only hope that I meet your's as well.
It's going to take time to forget him and the memories and the pain that he has caused. But I believe that it is entirely possible. You have stood by me when I was weak and probably at my lowest. I know that because I could count on you then, I can count on you for pretty much anything. One of my favorite quotes came from Marylin Monroe: "If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best." I know that you can, ergo, you do.
I admit, I am not much used to the way that things have happened, but I cannot deny the way that I feel. I know that someday, over the rainbow, we will be happy.
Her past is somewhat dotted, but she refuses to let it affect her present. Her present is somewhat slow, but she is pushing on to enjoy her future. She is not sure why things have happened to her the way that they did, and she's not sure that she deserved them. But there always seems to be something better along the way. Someone to pick up the pieces and put together a whole new person with a whole new outlook.
I believe that I can trust you, and that sounds absolutely crazy to me at this point. I don't know that I should be trusting anyone right now, but I know that I can trust in you. You see things about me that I don't even see sometimes. You're so much on my level, that it seems too good to be true. I used to think that the standards that I set for myself would never be met and I would have to eventually just settle. But to be quite honest, you meet those standards. You might even be above them. I can only hope that I meet your's as well.
It's going to take time to forget him and the memories and the pain that he has caused. But I believe that it is entirely possible. You have stood by me when I was weak and probably at my lowest. I know that because I could count on you then, I can count on you for pretty much anything. One of my favorite quotes came from Marylin Monroe: "If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best." I know that you can, ergo, you do.
I admit, I am not much used to the way that things have happened, but I cannot deny the way that I feel. I know that someday, over the rainbow, we will be happy.