things that i will do
I've been putting off writing my New Year's Resolutions for quite some time now, but I think its really about that time.
I'm not really big believer in *New Year's* resolutions per se- mostly because mine have crashed and burned with a fatality rate pushing 90%- but I am a big fan of change. Honestly. I could pack up and leave in a minute. Which is getting more and more tempting. Anyways, these are changes I would like to make in my life and I hope at least 3 of them will stick throughout my life, rather than just a few months.
1) see my grandparents more
i saw them maybe about twice in 2009, possibly 3 times, and thats really not very good. our family was never really "close" to the rest of the family. not because of any drama or scandals (unfortunately), mostly due to distance and laziness in communication. we're lucky to at least live close to my dad's parents (about 30 mins) so we have them at least. my mom's parents, as well our aunt, uncle and cousins, live up in vermont. i saw them once in the last 5 years. the rest of the family is really scattered everywhere, from california, to nevada, to the poconos to west virginia and so on. family reunions happen a lot but we don't go. that all being said, i don't want to lose all ties with my family, and it really does feel that they are slipping away. hence, this is my first and foremost priority.
2) do something for myself
between work and, well... getting to work, i haven't made a lot of time to do things for myself. i have capoeira (when class isn't cancelled) and frankly, if i didn't, i would probably lose my mind. i get to run when the weather isn't terrifically offensive, but other than that, i don't really leave myself with time to do things that i really want to. when it comes to the work schedule, i always make it around other people's plans (note: i don't see this as a fault, really, because i think its important everyone gets to have a life outside of work). i have scheduled myself with particular days off in the hope of getting to a little shindig going on the day, but whenever someone asks me to switch for whatever reason, most of the time, I give in. I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining, I'm not, its just that I have ALWAYS put my plans on hold for others. Even before I took over the schedule. I worked on my birthday half of the years I have been there because other people wanted off. Outside of work I put off going back to school because it wasn't logistically or financially possibly "for both of us to go". Again, I'm not blaming or resenting anyone for this but myself. I can't keep doing it. Every year I am a little tenser- and a little older. I don't want to turn around when I'm 35 and found I have done NOTHING I wanted to try. So this year, I'm aiming to try at least one new thing that I have always been curious about. This also goes for making personal time to see old friends. I'm sick of being a hermit.
3) be financially saavy
all going as planned, i will be debt free (or very, very close) by the fall. At that point, I want to start building up a beautiful, luxorious savings account that can accomodate my plans for a very awesome vacation in 2011 without leaving me strapped.
4) run the marathon
duh
5) lose 15 pounds
this is more of a hope. if it doesn't happen, i won't hate myself. but its pretty manageable and i think i'll get there just fine.
so, thats it. some of what i'm wanting to accomplish this year. there's a couple others, but i'll go into more detail about them another time, thats a whole other discussion.
until then, i'm off to bed. g'night kids