Ben Harper rocks!
I just wanted to share that Ben Harper rocks because something awesome just happened. Let me get everyone caught up. Lately I've been so desensitized. I could feel myself pushing everyone away. I haven't prayed, like really prayed, in a while. I wouldn't answer when my best friends would call. I've been as mean as you can be without actually being MEAN to Bret. I have no idea why. For some reason I just have not wanted to be around anybody except for my pup, Kirby. This morning Bret told me that it hasn't seemed like I'd been happy to see him the past few days. This sick part of me was actually happy he'd noticed. Isn't that messed up? But later today I was sitting, doing my hair, and listening to Ben Harper. I stopped about 10 minutes into doing my hair and went into the kitchen to get something. When I went into the kitchen I saw Kirby standing at the back door. I had totally forgotten I put him out. I felt so badly that I had left him outside. I let him and just started crying for no reason. The truth is once the first tear touched my face I wasn't sad anymore. I was happy. I am happy because for once in the past few days I'm actually feeling something! I think my selfish fit is over, and I'm glad. Thanks, Ben Harper!!