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so, we have this "events line" that rings mine and heather's phone with "event" related questions/requests. not ONCE has one of those phone calls been event related. they are ALL reservation calls. heather and i just quit answering it now...sometimes we'll answer if we are feeling nice, but we NEVER say our name. all of this to say...the phone has been ringing CONSTANTLY today...on the "events" line. not my clients. not my husband. it rings all 4 phones (yes i said 4). and it just loops. so if i don't finally answer it, it will continue to ring and ring and ring and...well, you get the point. every question is related to stupid bob the builder. ahhhh!
i went to the dr. on monday. he upped my meds. i feel like i am on speed. i have gotten a total of 8 hours of sleep the past 2 days. that is SO not like me. i am a girl who needs her 8 hours a night. but i'm not tired during the day. i actually feel like speedy gonzalez (ha, i just made myself laugh out loud). i have absolutely no concept of time either. the dr. diagnosed me with severe depression and ADD. i'm 25 years old and have JUST been diagnosed with ADD. wtf? the meds are supposed to help with the ADD, but i'm not seeing it. and i can't stop talking. well, i can today since i am by myself in the office (which is probably a good thing because, let's face it, i need to shut up). ken told me to slow down at least 3 times in our conversation last night before going to bed. what's going on here? i'm talking like the micro machine man!
on a different note...ken and i seem to be doing better. i'm slowly learning to just let things go. i have a REALLY hard time with that. i don't keep written lists of wrongdoings, but i sure as hell can pull up a mental list and tell you something that you did to me in 4th grade. who knows what that's about. but i've decided that i WILL NOT apologize to his stupid sister for kicking her out of our house. she is 30 years old and acts like a 5 year old. she has never been told no in her life...well, i'm telling her no. i have a serious, deep down, dislike for her. i could go on for DAYS so...new subject. too much of my time and energy has been spent talking about her...ugh.
i'm supposed to go to my mom and dad's on sunday for mothers day. i can't/won't go by myself. it makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it. maybe i should make something similar to a nametag to wear with a list of things that CANNOT be discussed. it would go something like this:
1. my financial situation
2. my marriage
3. my mental health (HA)
3. did i mention my financial situation?
4. and you will by NO MEANS say the word hateful in my presence
yeah. that sounds good. let's go with that. i'll get the office supplies to start working on that. speaking of office supplies...i have to go make copies.
i went to the dr. on monday. he upped my meds. i feel like i am on speed. i have gotten a total of 8 hours of sleep the past 2 days. that is SO not like me. i am a girl who needs her 8 hours a night. but i'm not tired during the day. i actually feel like speedy gonzalez (ha, i just made myself laugh out loud). i have absolutely no concept of time either. the dr. diagnosed me with severe depression and ADD. i'm 25 years old and have JUST been diagnosed with ADD. wtf? the meds are supposed to help with the ADD, but i'm not seeing it. and i can't stop talking. well, i can today since i am by myself in the office (which is probably a good thing because, let's face it, i need to shut up). ken told me to slow down at least 3 times in our conversation last night before going to bed. what's going on here? i'm talking like the micro machine man!
on a different note...ken and i seem to be doing better. i'm slowly learning to just let things go. i have a REALLY hard time with that. i don't keep written lists of wrongdoings, but i sure as hell can pull up a mental list and tell you something that you did to me in 4th grade. who knows what that's about. but i've decided that i WILL NOT apologize to his stupid sister for kicking her out of our house. she is 30 years old and acts like a 5 year old. she has never been told no in her life...well, i'm telling her no. i have a serious, deep down, dislike for her. i could go on for DAYS so...new subject. too much of my time and energy has been spent talking about her...ugh.
i'm supposed to go to my mom and dad's on sunday for mothers day. i can't/won't go by myself. it makes my stomach hurt just thinking about it. maybe i should make something similar to a nametag to wear with a list of things that CANNOT be discussed. it would go something like this:
1. my financial situation
2. my marriage
3. my mental health (HA)
3. did i mention my financial situation?
4. and you will by NO MEANS say the word hateful in my presence
yeah. that sounds good. let's go with that. i'll get the office supplies to start working on that. speaking of office supplies...i have to go make copies.