why?
Pierre is sick, as most of you know. He's getting worse though, and I'm afraid we might have to put him down. I don't WANT to do it, but if it has to happen... then it has to happen. I don't want to talk to the vet, face to face or on the phone. I don't want to hear them say "We will have to put him down, I'm sorry." My dad can tell me, I mean back in Aug (if you knew my back then) you might remember me saying that he had a possible chance of dieing due to a possible tumor. My dad told me that, yeah, I cryed. I didn't want him to die, but things happen. I hate to say this... but I kind of want it, I don't want him to suffer if he is. I have tried to give him the best life possible, I've had him for a little over a year now. He's like, everything to me. He's my baby, I love him. If he has to be put down, I'm really going to miss him. I really really will. Just everyone remember, this is an extreamly hard time for me, I'm really stressed out, I'm just gonna need friends... I don't wanna have a weird break down and fuck up my arm... again... I havn't in a long time, and I honestly don't want to again. I've calmed down alot in the past 15 or so min. Andrea got on and I stopped crying, she got me to calm down.
**Andrea, I love you so much. You're sooo great, you're always there for me and always make me feel better and not like such a loser. Thank you sooo much for being here for me, I love you.**
So yeah, right now I'm just talking to people, calming down and everything. School starts the day after tomorrow... I have to go, If I don't I will miss alot of shit. And Jessi and I have to finish our screenplay, *sigh* so much shit to get done. Jessi, I know you prolly won't read this, but I'm sooooo sorry we didn't finish that screenplay, and I havn't been much of a help with the whole thing lately.
Ugh, I have a HORRIBLE headache, and my stomach feels like it's being stabbed, and I'm not shakin as much, which is really good cause I could hardly hold a cup 5 min ago. Just everyone, please hope Pierre gets better, and stays that way. It's not my fauly he's sick, I try my best to keep him healthy and I do everything I'm supposed to do. Okay, the heater is on and now im freezing cold... can someone come over and comfort me? Please? I just want to cuddle with someone... I want someone to hold me... so can someone please come over?...
***EDIT:(I would do an LJ cut, but it wont let me, sorry everyone)
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v61/Juicy92887/Pets/Pierre6.jpg (yes, I want this one to be a link, that's about how big he is)
Look at how cute he is...
He's such a dork, I love him... the second pic was taken the day I got him... *sigh*... OMG! I have pix of him on my dads film that was left over in his cam! Yay, I can get them developed and put them in my photo album...
=) He's so cute... *sigh*
I'm out, I'm gonna go calm down some more...
Love ya'll MUAH
<3<3
**Andrea, I love you so much. You're sooo great, you're always there for me and always make me feel better and not like such a loser. Thank you sooo much for being here for me, I love you.**
So yeah, right now I'm just talking to people, calming down and everything. School starts the day after tomorrow... I have to go, If I don't I will miss alot of shit. And Jessi and I have to finish our screenplay, *sigh* so much shit to get done. Jessi, I know you prolly won't read this, but I'm sooooo sorry we didn't finish that screenplay, and I havn't been much of a help with the whole thing lately.
Ugh, I have a HORRIBLE headache, and my stomach feels like it's being stabbed, and I'm not shakin as much, which is really good cause I could hardly hold a cup 5 min ago. Just everyone, please hope Pierre gets better, and stays that way. It's not my fauly he's sick, I try my best to keep him healthy and I do everything I'm supposed to do. Okay, the heater is on and now im freezing cold... can someone come over and comfort me? Please? I just want to cuddle with someone... I want someone to hold me... so can someone please come over?...
***EDIT:(I would do an LJ cut, but it wont let me, sorry everyone)
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v61/Juicy92887/Pets/Pierre6.jpg (yes, I want this one to be a link, that's about how big he is)
Look at how cute he is...
He's such a dork, I love him... the second pic was taken the day I got him... *sigh*... OMG! I have pix of him on my dads film that was left over in his cam! Yay, I can get them developed and put them in my photo album...
=) He's so cute... *sigh*
I'm out, I'm gonna go calm down some more...
Love ya'll MUAH
<3<3