uncertainties
the longest hair on my head is maybe an inch long. it feels pretty wonderful. also, today i fully realized the relationship i'm in is dead. after not seeing said boy for 4 days, the first thing he says when he sees me today is, "wow, your hair is short," with a look of disgust on his face. i'm glad it's going to end right as the school year is, so there's no weird summer feelings going on. i've also fully killed another friendship this weekend. it was pretty dead already, but i sealed the deal. i like not being in a state of limbo.
i'm going to an open house today for a huge purple victorian home for next year with six friends. i hope we get it, i have a feeling we might, one of the girls in our group has been e-mailing the woman in portugese, she says she's really excited to meet us today. if that's the case, the move in date is july 1st. pitchfork is on the 14th or something like that, but i think i would like to move back to santa cruz shortly after, maybe july 2oth or something? I've realized my anxiety to come home has mostly been anxiety about school ending, not location really. I don't think I'm going to work while I'm home since I hear build-a-bear kind of sucks now, so I may as well come back to santa cruz to try to find a job. i want to come home to see friends, my parents, my dog, but i think being there too long may just become depressing.
i have a bladder infection and it sucks so bad.
i'm going to an open house today for a huge purple victorian home for next year with six friends. i hope we get it, i have a feeling we might, one of the girls in our group has been e-mailing the woman in portugese, she says she's really excited to meet us today. if that's the case, the move in date is july 1st. pitchfork is on the 14th or something like that, but i think i would like to move back to santa cruz shortly after, maybe july 2oth or something? I've realized my anxiety to come home has mostly been anxiety about school ending, not location really. I don't think I'm going to work while I'm home since I hear build-a-bear kind of sucks now, so I may as well come back to santa cruz to try to find a job. i want to come home to see friends, my parents, my dog, but i think being there too long may just become depressing.
i have a bladder infection and it sucks so bad.