i need you so much closer
003 i'm not a child, i know we're not going steady
i need you so much closer: a mix for unrequited love
i. light a roman candle with me...fun.
(...just spend an evening with me, just a lazy evening, then you could be leaving, or we could stay and talk until three, i will think it's magic and i'll hope you'll agree...)
ii. hardest of hearts...florence + the machine
(...there is love in your body but you can't get it out, it gets stuck in your head, won't come out of your mouth, sticks on your tongue and it shows on your face that the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste, darling heart, i loved you from the start, but you'll never know what a fool i've been, darling heart, i've loved you from the start, but that's no excuse for the state i'm in...)
iii. the sweetest thing...camera obscura
(...i'm going on a date tonight, to try and fall out of love with you, i know, i know this is a crime, but i don't know what else to do, my love, you're in a magazine, my love, you're doing fine, you're on tv, you warm my heart up then you run away, from chicago to cleveland you made me pay, you made me pay, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother to hear you sing, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother, on the bus radio, fifty ways to leave you're lover alone, i laughed at the irony, but like the stupid the irony got lost on me, it got lost on me, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother to hear you sing, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother, you challenged me to write a love song, here it is, i think i got it wrong, i focused on the negative, the pain was too much of an incentive, oh, it was my incentive, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother to hear you sing, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother to hear you sing, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother to hear you sing, when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing, i would trade my mother, oh but she don't know just how far i'd go, would i walk for a hundred miles, for a glimpse of your northern smile...)
iv. almost lover...a fine frenzy
(...i never want to see you unhappy, i thought you'd want the same for me, goodbye, my almost lover, goodbye, my hopeless dream, i'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be, so long, my luckless romance, my back is turned on you, should've known you'd bring me heartache, almost lovers always do...)
v. momentum...the hush sound
(...you are the rain on the fire, deep in the trees, when no one was looking, should i speak of this, should i speak of this, you are a mirage in the distance, that defies the heat of the desert, should i believe in you, should i believe in you, all we need is a little bit of momentum, break down these walls that we've built around ourselves, all we need is a little bit of inertia, break down and tell, break down and tell...)
vi. i still remember...bloc party
(...and i can see our days are becoming nights, i could feel your heartbeat across the grass, we should've run, i would go with you anywhere, i should've kissed you by the water, you should have asked me for it, i would have been brave, you should've asked me for it, how could i say no, and our love could've soared over playgrounds and rooftops, every park bench screams your name, i kept your tie, i'd've let you if you asked me, i still remember...)
vii. nicest thing...kate nash
(...all i know is your so nice, you're the nicest thing i've seen, i wish that we could give it a go, see if we could be something, i wish i was your favorite girl, i wish you thought i was the reason you are in the world, i wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile, i wish the way that i dressed was your favorite kind of style, i wish you couldn't figure me out, but you'd always want to know what i was about, i wish you'd hold my hand when i was upset, i wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met...)
viii. the bolder thing to do...gregory & the hawk
(...every day trying to make up for the one before, climb three flights to tremble at the sight of your already open door, the frustration i see when i tell you i'd like some company breaks my heart, how can you be so impartial, and i've made myself the fool who's fallen for you, so let me down softly this time, so i don't have to come back crying, i've just made myself look bad, you're the one who should be feeling that, it'd be better to forget you, but i don't really want to, it'd be better to forget you, but i don't really want to, energy spent trying to believe you're not worth it, you don't deserve it, but i wish you did cos i can't rid the thought of it, and i'll remember you as the second of two artists i knew who decided to screw me over, cos it's the bolder thing to do, and i've made myself the fool who's fallen for you, so let me down softly this time, so i don't have to come back crying, i've just made myself look bad, you're the one who should be feeling that, it'd be better to forget you, but i don't really want to, it'd be better to forget you, but i don't really want to, and i've made myself the fool who's fallen for you, so let me down softly this time, so i don't have to come back crying, and i've made myself the fool who's fallen for you, so let me down softly this time, and i won't have to come back crying...)
ix. sundress...ben kweller
(...i want to start going on a morning walk, what about the days when we used to talk, i don't need a smile from a mannequin, i just want to hold you in my hands, i'd do everything you want me to...)
x. country mile...camera obscura
(...once again i'll be the foolish one, thinking a blink of these lashes would make you come, don't you worry, don't get in a state, i don't believe in true love anyway, who's being pessimistic now, i could document this as our first and our last row, the more you look forlorn, the more to you i warm...)
xi. too many stars...let's go sailing
(...today was a long day, yesterday seemed shorter, i thought things were going my way, but i guess they got turned around, my heart is the only black pea, the broken rubber band in the bag of good ones, could it be there are too many stars in the sky, but i can't go inside, and leave them behind, but they hurt, they hurt my eyes, t
oday was a dark day, yesterday seemed brighter, i thought things were going my way, but i guess they found something better, my fingers are like broken matchsticks, and surely my eyes will come to a similar end, could it be there are too many fruits on the trees, and still none sweet enough, but if you were mine, i wouldn't mind looking at the sky, if you were mine, there'd be plenty of stars, and not too many...)
xii. worn me down...rachael yamagata
(...and you're wrong, you're wrong, i'm not overreacting, something is off, why don't we ever believe ourselves, and i, oh i, i feel that word for you, and i will because you've worn me down, oh i will because you've worn me down, worn me down like a road, i did everything you told, worn me down to my knees, i did everything to please, but you can't stop thinking about her, no, you can't stop thinking about her, she's so pretty, so damn bright, but i'm so tired of thinking about her again tonight...)
xiii. i'm in love with the city...god help the girl
(...i'm in love with the city, i'm in love with the boy, gotta put it on record, gotta write a new song, there ain't no way around it, he's in love with another girl, i'm a wreck, i'll admit it, i can't eat when he's near, and i'm so tired and nervous that you better stay clear, leave me to the company of me if i can't have him, i'm trying to be tender, i'm trying to be cool, i laugh at my own jokes, i laugh like a fool, there ain't no doubt about it, he's in with his lifelong girl, what chance do i have, a cat's chance in hell, i'd better take it, i'm gonna write him a letter, gonna put it in words, gonna make it official, gonna make it absurd, hold the pen there a second, girl, you'll spoil what you have to do, they're a sweet loving couple, how could you come between all the talk and the tenderness, the love and the feeling, his eyes start to sparkle, sparks for the other girl, i'm in love with face, i'm in love with his eyes, i could eat him for breakfast, boy, would he be surprised, if he knew how i felt, it would spoil any chance i had, what chance is that, it's a cat's chance in hell, i'd better take it, what is that, it's a cat's chance in hell, i'd better take it...)
xiv. love it when you call...the feeling
(...remember me, i used to be your best time buddy that you couldn't wait to see, but getting old, it takes a toll, and hearts getting broken leads to people growing cold, oh i, i'm flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side, oh, and i, i'm gonna be the one who makes you stop and realize that you could have it all, yeah, we should have it all, i love it when you call, i love it when you call, i love it when you call, but you never call at all, say, what's the complication, it's only conversation, i love it when you call but you never call at all...)
xv. wrapped arund your finger...the police
(...you consider me the young apprentice, caught between scylla and charibdes, hypnotized by you if i should linger, staring at the ring around your finger, i have only come here seeking knowledge, things they would not teach me of in college, i can see the destiny you sold turn into a shining band of gold, i'll be wrapped around your finger, i'll be wrapped around your finger, mephistopheles is not your name, i know what you're up to just the same, i will listen hard to your tuition, you will see it come to it's fruition, i'll be wrapped around your finger, i'll be wrapped around your finger, devil and the deep blue sea behind me, vanish in the air, you'll never find me, i will turn your face to alabaster, when you find your servant is your master, you'll be wrapped around my finger, you'll be wrapped around my finger, you'll be wrapped around my finger...)
xvi. i will possess your heart...death cab for cutie
(...how i wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me, it's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read just yet, you got to spend some time, love, you got to spend some time with me, and i know that you'll find, love, i will possess your heart, you got to spend some time, love, you got to spend some time with me, and i know that you'll find, love, i will possess your heart, there are days when outside your window, i see my reflection as i slowly pass, and i long for this mirrored perspective when we'll be lovers, lovers at last, you got to spend some time, love, you got to spend some time with me, and i know that you'll find, love, i will possess your heart,you got to spend some time, love, you got to spend some time with me, and i know that you'll find, love, i will possess your heart, i will possess your heart, i will possess your heart...)
xvii. gray or blue...jaymay
(...i feel so helpless now, my guitar is not around, and i'm struggling with the xylophone to make these feelings sound, and i'm remembering your singing, and bringing you to life, and it's raining out the window, and today it looks like night, you haven't written to me in a week, i wonder why that is, are you too nervous to be lovers, friendships ruined with just one kiss, i watched you very closely, and i saw you look away, your eyes are either gray or blue, i'm never close enough to say, but your sweatshirt says it all with the hood over your face, and i can't keep staring at your mouth without wondering how it tastes, and i'm with another boy, he's asleep, i'm wide awake, and he'll try to win my heart but it's taking time, and i know the shape of your hands because i watch them when you talk, and i know the shape of your body, cos i watch it when you walk, and i want to know it all, but i'm giving you the lead, so go on, go on and take it, don't fake it, shake it, (crazy eyes have you, are they gray or blue, i won't make a move, you must make a move, if you make a move, i will then approve, if you do not move, we will surely lose), don't second guess your feelings, you were right from the start, and i've noticed she's your lover, but she's nowhere near your heart, this city is for strangers like the sky is for the stars, i think it's very dangerous if we do not take what's ours, and i'm winning you with words because i have no other way, i'd love to look into your face without your eyes turning away, last night i watched you sing because a person has to try, i walked home in the rain because a person cannot lie...)
xviii. breathless...dan wilson
(...your voice is echoing again, through catacombs inside my mind, and i've been dreaming of revenge, to make you love me more than even you can try, all words converge to where you are, and if i follow i will surely find, the horse is gone, the fire's still warm, you moved on an hour before, you like to keep me just one step behind,but you were always pretty reckless with your love, come with the sun and getting restless, when it's gone, and when you go you leave me breathless, and alone, you leave me breathless, when you close the door it feels just like you took the air out of the room with you, breathless...)
xix. bruises...chairlift
(...i tried to do handstands for you, i tried to do handstands for you, but every time i fell on you, yeah, every time i fell, i tried to do handstands for you, but every time i fell for you, i'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you...)
xx. my maudlin career...camera obscura
(...i'll bail you out again, i've got the readies, i'm not a child, i know we're not going steady...)
xxi.transatlanticism...death cab for cutie
(...i need you so much closer...)
xxii. trouble sleeping...the perishers
(...i'm having trouble sleeping, you've been jumping in my bed, twisting in my head, leave me, i'm having trouble breathing, you're sitting on my chest, i sure could use the rest, leave me...)
xxiii. i'll hold my breath...ellie goulding
(...breathe air you're not used to, tread floors you don't fall through, make waves, you crash a cymbal hard, follow no one, always play the wrong card, waste days in foreign places, shed light on your better side, reassure me that you'll wait for me, wait for me as long as it takes, and i'll hold my breath, i'll hold my breath, until you see me in your dreams, we'll stay awake beneath the trees, we'll watch the buildings turn to dust, a sky of diamonds, just for us, you are the risk i'll always take, the only branch i'll never break, those fears, we'll blow them all away, we'll blow them all away, fight fires in your best clothes, touch skin with your eyes close, chase thunder with the volume down, pack a suitcase, wander to the next town, force quit on your losing streak, solve a riddle in a magazine, be tongue in cheek, tell me that we're still too young, we're still too young, i'll hold my tongue...)
xxiv. handsome drink...aberdeen
(...when i think of you, i think i'm just a fool with handsome drink, it never fails that i can't sleep, dreaming of you, i mull and sink, i can't wake up, if i could think of things to say, i don't think that i'd act this way, it never fails that i can't speak, i hear your voice and i go weak, i can't wake up...)
xxv. find my love...the avett brothers
(...what makes it easy to treat people bad, some things you say, and you can't take them back, what makes it easy to run from the past like a child runs from the dark, which is the poison, and which is the wine, the scent and the colors are so much alike, and how much of each will it take to decide when you're at the table alone, where do you go when it's perfectly clear you might find your way, but you won't find it here, what makes it easy to sound so sincere when you know that you don't care, love gets lost, love gets lost, find my love, find my love, how can you tell when goodbye means goodbye, not just for now, but for the rest of your life, how can you stand there with love in your eyes, and still be walking away, love gets lost, love gets lost, find my love, find my love, find my love, find my love...)
xxvi. in our nature...jose gonzalez
(...it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, put down your sword, send home your dogs, open up you doors, let down your guard, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, put down your gun, ignore the alarm, open up your heart, let down your guard, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature, it's in our nature...)
xxvii. perfect circle...katie melua
(...a mask is easily placed on a betrayed and broken face, our disguise to hide the past when you mapped out my skin and made the memories last, some things are never erased, and i have run when i've been chased, by recollection of you and me falling off our homemade castles, and even when i'm walking straight, i always end up in a perfect circle, oh, i try but i just can't wait to break out of this perfect circle, cos giving into old temptation is like that common twitch, the silly, stupid realization, the more you scratch, the more you itch...)
xxviii. strange and beautiful...aqualung
(...i've been watching your world from afar, i've been trying to be where you are, and i've been secretly falling apart, unseen, to me, you're strange and your beautiful, you'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see, you turn every head but you don't see me, i'll put a spell on you, you fall asleep, and i'll put a spell on you, and when i wake you, i'll be the first thing you see, and you'll realize that you love me...)
xxix. funny little frog...god help the girl
(...honey, loving you is the greatest thing, i get to be myself, and i get to sing, i get to play at being irresponsible, i come home late and i love your soul, but i never forget you in my prayers, i never have a bad thing to report, you're my picture on the wall, you're my vision in the hall, you're the one i'm talking to when i get in from my work, you're my guy and you don't even know it, you're the funny little frog in my throat, my eyesight's fading, my hearing's dim, i can't get insured for the state i'm in, i'm a danger to myself, i've been starting fights, at the party, at the club on a saturday night, but i don't get disapproving from my boy, he gets all the highlights wrapped in joy, you're my picture on the wall, you're my vision in the hall, you're the one i'm talking to when i get in from my work, you're my guy and you don't even know it, i am living out the life of a poet, i'm a jester in the ancient court, and you're the funny little frog in my throat, i had a conversation with you last night, it was a little one sided but that's alright, i tell you in the kitchen about my day, you sit on the bed in the dark changing place with the ghost that was there before you came, you've come to save my, my life again, i don't dare touch your hand, i don't dare think of you in a physical way, and i don't know how you smell, you're the cover of my magazine, you're a fashion tip, a living museum, i pay to visit you on a rainy sunday, i'll maybe tell you all about it someday...)
xxx. sway...the kooks
(...still, i need your sway, cos you always pay for it, and i need your soul, cos you're always soulful, and i need your heart, cos you're always in the right places...)
xxxi. we might as well be strangers...keane
(...i don't know your face no more, or feel the touch that i adore, i don't know your face no more, it's just a place i'm looking for, we might as well be strangers in another town, we might as well be living in a different world, we might as well, we might as well, we might as well, i don't know your thoughts these days, we're strangers in an empty space, i don't understand your heart, it's easier to be apart, we might as well be strangers in another town, we might as well be living in another town, we might as well, we might as well, we might as well be strangers, be strangers, for all i know of you now, for all i know of you now, for all i know of you now, for all i know...)
xxxii. boys with girlfriends...meiko
(...when i first met you, i knew you were the one, then you took me home and i met her, she had your boxers on, she was listening to your song, and i thought right then that you had everything, but i knew she was jealous from the start, yeah i knew she was jealous from the start, i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends, oh, i know better than that, i know better, you'll play the victim, and i'll be the bad guy, i know better than that, i know better, we started hanging around at the nine, i could've sworn that i was yours, you looked at me and said, it's a little too late for bed, we went to a hotel and talked about everything, but i knew she was jealous from the start, yeah i knew she was jealous from the start, i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends, oh, i know better than that, i know better, you'll play the victim, and i'll be the bad guy, i know better than that, i know better, cos what she did to us was tragic, and i had to do what's right, what we had was really magic, but i have to get what's mine, i'll get what's mine, and you'll get yours, i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends, oh, i know better than that, i know better, you'll play the victim, and i'll be the bad guy, i know better than that, i know better, i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends, oh, i know better than that, i know better, you'll play the victim, and i'll be the bad guy, i know better than that, i know better...)
xxxiii. engine heart...mirah
(...be still my heart, engine turning over, won't you start, this one's come to tear me all apart, be still my heart, just read those eyes, trembling lips and carburetor sighs, and even though i know they're telling lies, be still my heart...)
xxxiv. twenty...natalie imbruglia
(...twenty cities have passed me by, keep finding treasures i don't want to find, but i've stolen and i've crossed the line and i want you, i want you, twenty seconds and you could be gone, you shine brighter than the morning sun, you think it's over but it's just begun and i want you, i want you, this sky of grey is full of gold, can fill you heart and fill you soul, i'll drink it up and take it slow, i don't need anything else, tell me where i'm heading, tell me i could be there soon, somewhere i've forgotten, i die a little more for you, when everything is broken, there's a piece i'll never lose, i keep finding reasons to die a little more for you, twenty questions ringing in my head, the moment's over but it's never dead, what did i say and what does all this mean, cos i want you, i want you, the firelight as it hits you eye, the heads turn as you walk on by, maybe we belong in another time, still i want you, i want you, this sky of grey is full of gold, can fill you heart and fill you soul, i'll drink it up and take it slow, i don't need anything else, tell me where i'm heading, tell me i could be there soon, somewhere i've forgotten, i die a little more for you, when everything is broken, there's a piece i'll never lose, i keep finding reasons to die a little more for you, how many things can you wish for, cos wishing's all i do, when it comes to you, how many lies can we live through, how many times can you keep moving, moving on,tell me where i'm heading, tell me i could be there soon, somewhere i've forgotten, i die a little more for you, when everything is broken, there's a piece i'll never lose, i keep finding reasons to die a little more for you, die a little more for you, die a little more for you...)
xxxv. find a way...safetysuit
(...hold on, what's the rush, what's the rush, we're not done, are we, cos i don't need to change this atmosphere we've made if you can stay one more hour, can you stay one more hour, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, you know i'm gonna find the time to catch your hand and make you stay, hold on, i'll be here when it's all done, you know, cos what's the point in chasing if i can't enjoy you face and we can be wrong tonight, can we be wrong tonight, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, you know i'm gonna find the time to catch you hand and make you stay, i don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and i don't care, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, and if i was running you'd be the one who i would be running to, and if i was crying you would be lying on that cloud that would pull me through, and if i was scared then i would be glad to tell you and walk away, that i am not lying, i am just trying to find my way into you, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, you know i'm gonna find the time to catch you hand and make you stay, i don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and i don't care, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, you know i'm gonna find the time to catch you hand and make you stay, i don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and i don't care, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me, and if i was running, and if i was crying, and if i was scared, you know i'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me...)
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