Crazed and Betrayed.
So I have come to the conclusion that trust is the biggest mistake one can possibly make. In my honesty, my time as a jaded, scheming, hating human being, I still haven't wronged those that are truly close to me in any way that will leave permanent scarring, but those closest to me feel the need to do so to me. I put so much trust in those I thought I could and I found out the hard way that at the slightest retreat from that closeness, that security of "best friends", they will betray you... They will stab you in the back with the most vengeance they can muster. I figured it wouldn't ever be a problem, her coming between us, but she implanted herself there due to her own jealousy and regret at not having someone of her own... And I guess the old saying stands true; "If I can't have it, no one can." Well, hate to burst your bubble, dear, but just because no one loves you doesn't mean that no one loves me. So thank you, Danielle, for attempting to persuade my boyfriend to leave me due to her jealousy and then, at the sign of his not desiring to leave me, she then attempted to persuade him to cheat on me with her new best friend. I can't help but wonder if she was only doing that at her friend's prodding because that's the only friend she has, now, or because she truly did want to tear us apart. I find it disgusting that she would choose me of all of her so-called friends to sabotage because, as you all know, I have a baby with Bobby and we have enough problems within ourselves without her attempting to come between us. I can't imagine what she was thinking or why she would force that slut between us, but she's trying, even after he's made it clear that he doesn't want to do that. I guess I wasn't supposed to know, but I've known for the past 3 weeks. I only thought that Amber was the one pursuing Bobby until I realized that Danielle has been pressuring Bobby to sleep with her. I trust Bobby and I know he hasn't done anything with her, but I am very disappointed... "Aint it funny how everything you swore would never change is different now?" Yeah. I suppose I really can't trust anyone and I will withdraw my personal status to everyone. I will guard myself more avidly and I will pay more attention to the deceit everyone has upon their lips. I have done nothing to warrant this behavior... And there are no excuses when it comes to her. I am truly angry. If you'd like a more emotional (a more cruel) rendition, check my latests myspace blog. I am not happy at my vehemence, but it is who I am. ... Am I honestly wrong to be angry? Wouldn't any girl be angry? Especially if you'd been friends with this girl for over 5 years? She will come back at this with excuses, with justification, but I know there is none and there is no forgiveness. I never put Bobby before her, I never blew her off to spend time with him, I was always the median. Even when she couldn't make time for me when she was with Chris, I came back. When she couldn't control her sexual escapades, I stayed with her. When she acted slutty and asked me, sobbing, "Why does everyone think I'm such a slut?", I stayed... But she's gone too far, I guess. I hope she realizes her mistake. I may not be the best friend to have, but I am the worst enemy one could possibly make. And the best part is that I keep her close through Bobby... I keep my enemies closer. Yeah. She's a bitch.