dear journal,
i've contemplated deleting you a lot these days. but you have almost 5 years of my life recorded, which serves as very useful analyses of how i used to think these last couple years. how i've grown. how i've changed the way i thought. jeez, sometimes reading my old entries make me cringe somewhat (don't start reading the old ones! stay out of 2002-2003 particularly).
although my blog on myspace arguably reaches more people (i even got a myspace message from tom that my blog is #654687984684684168 millionth or something like that in popularity!), there's something to be said about the emotional distance livejournal offers. much less people have livejournal these days so i can write about my experiences with a large majority of people without fear of reprisal or even acknowledgement.
love. disappointement. they mean virtually the same thing to me. idealism. reality. are apt analogies.
still, there's always someone on my periphery. barely on the radar. whom i always wonder about. whether it's idealism gone awry, or the key to everything. but the latter is also too idealistic to offer as an alternative.
i just want school to be over....
i can't believe how stressed out this semester has gotten me and how it's affecting everything i do.
haha, maybe i'll just stay in costa rica =P
fuck off USA, you probably won't elect barack obama anyway. even though his popularity ratings are the highest of all 2008 contenders..
although my blog on myspace arguably reaches more people (i even got a myspace message from tom that my blog is #654687984684684168 millionth or something like that in popularity!), there's something to be said about the emotional distance livejournal offers. much less people have livejournal these days so i can write about my experiences with a large majority of people without fear of reprisal or even acknowledgement.
love. disappointement. they mean virtually the same thing to me. idealism. reality. are apt analogies.
still, there's always someone on my periphery. barely on the radar. whom i always wonder about. whether it's idealism gone awry, or the key to everything. but the latter is also too idealistic to offer as an alternative.
i just want school to be over....
i can't believe how stressed out this semester has gotten me and how it's affecting everything i do.
haha, maybe i'll just stay in costa rica =P
fuck off USA, you probably won't elect barack obama anyway. even though his popularity ratings are the highest of all 2008 contenders..