Long ways to go
Hi Everyone,
It has been a long time since I wrote. What can I say life happened plus I change as person. I was so self-involved with myself and depressed every time I wrote that people were probably sick of reading about everything. Also my friends don't write anymore and I love reading what my friends wrote. Especially, Merry_Treat who add such a voice to her post it was like you were actually there seeing things through her eyes.
I love commenting on my friends post. Giving them encouragement or agreeing with them when life became shitty. When they stopped writing live journal became empty. My life also back a black hole where everything good got rip away by low-self-esteem.
What I felt or wanted to write didn't seem to matter anymore. I was to busy trying to keep people at a distance and hide from the world. I didn't feel like writing. I also I didn't have anything to write about.
Recently, I began to notice a change. I becoming open to people again. I feel like I now have this sunlight that I want to shine on people. It feels really good after being close off for so long. I feel like I am moving on in my life and growing. When before I was stuck.
I want to keep growing.....
I lost fourteen pounds by being apart of a contest at work. I want to lose more.
I want to be brave and tell people who don't accept me to fuck off.
I want to explore the world and not be afraid of it.
I want my friends to start writing again. I miss them and would love hearing about whats going on in their world.
I feel like I have a long way too go.
It has been a long time since I wrote. What can I say life happened plus I change as person. I was so self-involved with myself and depressed every time I wrote that people were probably sick of reading about everything. Also my friends don't write anymore and I love reading what my friends wrote. Especially, Merry_Treat who add such a voice to her post it was like you were actually there seeing things through her eyes.
I love commenting on my friends post. Giving them encouragement or agreeing with them when life became shitty. When they stopped writing live journal became empty. My life also back a black hole where everything good got rip away by low-self-esteem.
What I felt or wanted to write didn't seem to matter anymore. I was to busy trying to keep people at a distance and hide from the world. I didn't feel like writing. I also I didn't have anything to write about.
Recently, I began to notice a change. I becoming open to people again. I feel like I now have this sunlight that I want to shine on people. It feels really good after being close off for so long. I feel like I am moving on in my life and growing. When before I was stuck.
I want to keep growing.....
I lost fourteen pounds by being apart of a contest at work. I want to lose more.
I want to be brave and tell people who don't accept me to fuck off.
I want to explore the world and not be afraid of it.
I want my friends to start writing again. I miss them and would love hearing about whats going on in their world.
I feel like I have a long way too go.