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i want to go drive go-carts
i want to go to the aquarium
i want to go to the zoo
i want to go to beach
i want to go to a wine tasting
i want to ride roller coasters!
i want to eat funnel cake on a ferris wheel!
i want to have a picnic in a big huge sunny field
i can do none of these things alone
summer is fucking depressing
i only like being single early in the morning
i only like being lonely when i have shit to get done
the other day i was driving around and i had put on noise floor (bright eyes) for the first time in a couple months and i had this really sudden, almost violent thought that the reason i'm so down and painfully lonely is that i haven't been listening to enought bright eyes. i'm almost convinced it's true. when i listen to this stuff it makes me feel less like i'm failing at being happy and more like i'm succeding at being deep and depressed and brilliant.... in that pain is beauty kind of way. pain is art kind of way. it's a shift of perspective that if i can't be happy at least i can be content in my misery? it's better than being miserable in my loneliness. so i've been listening to alot of bright eyes the past few days.
i called a bunch of people i've fallen out of touch with.
i ate cooked food. it was really really good. i think vegan is good enough. raw is really way too expensive. one month was long enough. and miss bread way too much. i ate popcorn today. it's like.... the best invention ever.
i read choke by chuck palahniuk
i liked it
i can't decide what to read next i have too many options
i want to go to the aquarium
i want to go to the zoo
i want to go to beach
i want to go to a wine tasting
i want to ride roller coasters!
i want to eat funnel cake on a ferris wheel!
i want to have a picnic in a big huge sunny field
i can do none of these things alone
summer is fucking depressing
i only like being single early in the morning
i only like being lonely when i have shit to get done
the other day i was driving around and i had put on noise floor (bright eyes) for the first time in a couple months and i had this really sudden, almost violent thought that the reason i'm so down and painfully lonely is that i haven't been listening to enought bright eyes. i'm almost convinced it's true. when i listen to this stuff it makes me feel less like i'm failing at being happy and more like i'm succeding at being deep and depressed and brilliant.... in that pain is beauty kind of way. pain is art kind of way. it's a shift of perspective that if i can't be happy at least i can be content in my misery? it's better than being miserable in my loneliness. so i've been listening to alot of bright eyes the past few days.
i called a bunch of people i've fallen out of touch with.
i ate cooked food. it was really really good. i think vegan is good enough. raw is really way too expensive. one month was long enough. and miss bread way too much. i ate popcorn today. it's like.... the best invention ever.
i read choke by chuck palahniuk
i liked it
i can't decide what to read next i have too many options