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It took me like a million years but I finally got around to buying 69 Love Songs, after having owned and liked other Magnetic Fields albums since high school, even.
I have this problem with tasks, see. Even if the task is extremely small and the reward very large, if I don't want to do it, I won't do it, and instead put it off for days, months, years, all because of the tiny 'eh, not NOW' feeling of annoyance turning me off. It used to be REALLY bad - leaving things on the floor because I didn't want to bend to pick them up, leaving errands until the very very last possible minute because I didn't want to go out and do them, not doing homework because I didn't want to take the books out of the bag, even not playing a game/watching a movie because putting it in and adjusting the station was too much work. Weird, I know. It's not like I'm adverse to moving around or going outside or anything - if anything I'm wandering the house or outdoors more than I'm sitting, but when it comes to taking that energy and focusing it into tasks it's kind of like a fight. In other words I'm fine with randomly walking off to the store, but if I actually need to go to the store for SOMETHING, I balk. I've gotten much better at whipping myself into doing it, but there's still a struggle, like, 'not now, I can do it tomo- NO, you won't feel like doing it tomorrow, either! ENnngh fine.'
Iunno, maybe everyone's like this to some extent. The effort of putting my credit card info into iTunes stopped me from purchasing this album for years, though. But I did it, damn it, and I like the thing, surprise surprise. Various songs have been taking turns cycling through my head all week.
I have this problem with tasks, see. Even if the task is extremely small and the reward very large, if I don't want to do it, I won't do it, and instead put it off for days, months, years, all because of the tiny 'eh, not NOW' feeling of annoyance turning me off. It used to be REALLY bad - leaving things on the floor because I didn't want to bend to pick them up, leaving errands until the very very last possible minute because I didn't want to go out and do them, not doing homework because I didn't want to take the books out of the bag, even not playing a game/watching a movie because putting it in and adjusting the station was too much work. Weird, I know. It's not like I'm adverse to moving around or going outside or anything - if anything I'm wandering the house or outdoors more than I'm sitting, but when it comes to taking that energy and focusing it into tasks it's kind of like a fight. In other words I'm fine with randomly walking off to the store, but if I actually need to go to the store for SOMETHING, I balk. I've gotten much better at whipping myself into doing it, but there's still a struggle, like, 'not now, I can do it tomo- NO, you won't feel like doing it tomorrow, either! ENnngh fine.'
Iunno, maybe everyone's like this to some extent. The effort of putting my credit card info into iTunes stopped me from purchasing this album for years, though. But I did it, damn it, and I like the thing, surprise surprise. Various songs have been taking turns cycling through my head all week.