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so I kind of wish everyone looked the same. people around here, as much as we say people from highstown prodiminately look at personality first, i think its bologna. my friends are gorgeous, and no matter what I do, I'm unhappy with my appearence. Do i want to change anything? no, i just want to be happy in my own skin and it's not happening. I try too hard. this is such a little girl problem that I should be over by now. I apologize that some of the "i"s in this are lower case, but i don't give a fuck right now i just feel like typing. The backspace button keeps sticking and its pissing me off. My mood swings are getting out of hand. I know my parents don't believe in medication, but i realized what a nervous person I am. When i sit in class i fucking convolse (sp?) because I can't sit still. My nails are nubs because i chew them like a maniac; yet another thing that makes me completely unattractive. and not even look wise, just my body language is so awkward. i don't want to be an awkward person anymore. I have trouble making eyecontact with all but like 5 people because i don't like how my face looks, so i don't think they would either. braces are hideous, so i ruin every picture. maybe some adderol(sp?) is what i need to calm myself down? I dont like it one bit. before i go to bed, my feet shake because i can't sit still. im just wiggling all the time haha and i think it looks bad. i'm too nervous, and about nothing . I'm too insecure, as well. fuck it.