what she must think.

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It's the worst feeling in the world
to love and hate someone at the exact same time,
and it's hard to watch things change
when all you want is for it all to stay the same.
you want everything and nothing at the same time,
and you want to let go but you keep holding on.
You want to move on but you're stuck right where you started,
and feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want.
you want to see that one person everyday,
and when you do finally get the chance you don't know what to say.
you have so many things you want to tell him and wish he knew
but you have no idea where to start.
deep down inside you know if you lose him,
he's gone and he will never come back.
he can be right beside you, but yet he seems so far away ..
and you still want him in your life so bad,
but all you can do is push him farther and farther away.
it's so hard to think back to how things used to be,
and look at him now and realize that things are different
and they will never be the same.
you tell yourself he isn't even worth it,
but if he really didn't matter
you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about him.