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so i have been in a really off mood lately..it seems like i don't know what i want or where i am going..and i just can't get there fast enough...its been hard just being around those i love, for many reasons, we talked about some last night, i am just getting this empty feeling of lonliness again..i want to withddraw and go away, just drop everything and run..(i won't) my relationship though loving just doesn't seem that fulfilling right now, i feel like i am into the same old same old..like when i was married, though she is definately a better person and much more loving..i don't want the same thing i had before.. its hard to explain, and thats really the reason i haven't talked to her much about it..more so i just want to pull away and be alone (though i know i don't do well alone) still strange to love her as much as i do and still want to be alone..