i'm wishing/for the one i love/to find me/today
i'll admit, tonight has been spent on one of my frequent disney highs. where i start looking at disney videos on youtube or looking at DL pictures or what have you. yes, it happens all too often. and it ends in this weird mixture of pure childish glee and pathetic hopelessness over the fact that, in all seriousness, they will probably never want me as a princess at DL. but such a high got me thinking...
people always say "life isn't a fairytale" and blah blah blah. like, i have been told to get my head out of the clouds on more than one occassion. but why CAN'T life be a fairytale? why can't that kind of love and storyline happen? i mean...every princess goes through difficulties and overcomes them. we all go through difficulties and maybe if we actually overcame them, then we'd end up living happily ever after with the prince(ss) of our dreams.
i mean, look at belle, for instance. so she starts out her story a complete social outcast. sure, they all think she's pretty but in their minds, her weirdness outweighs that prettiness, so they shun her and her father who is deemed crazy by the town. so when she goes to save him, she's imprisoned and trapped by a beast. and she cries A LOT and she rebells and even though she keeps that mysterious princess curiousity about her, she's really upset for a really long time. but eventually they warm up to eachother and he's the man of her dreams.
or cinderella. both her parents are dead (shocker number one) and she's forced to live in an abusive household where she's made a servant. she's verbally killed by her stepmother and awful sisters and is forced to do housework and ridiculous chores all day every day. i mean... the girl's friends with MICE. but somehow, miraculously, she ends up getting the one opportunity to find her prince charming by attending the ball. and it's love at first sight. and even though before she leaves, her dress gets torn to shreds, and even though after she gets back, she's locked in her bedroom by her stepmother, true love finds a way to conquer all and they're reunited and married.
then there's sleeping beauty. she actually does meet the man of her dreams, literally. and he's a total fox. but first shes raised without her parents, in secrecy, because basically maleficant is trying to kill her. she can't see her parents and she can have no real friends. then when she FINALLY finds love, she falls under the sleeping spell and can't enjoy our dear prince phillip. and with one simple kiss, with one tiny portrayal of his affection, she springs to life and they live happily ever after.
and what about snow white?? she's raised, without a father, and with a wicked queen for a mother. she's a servant in her own household, as well, being forced to mop and scrub...OUTSIDE (wtf is up with that? it always bugged me) all day. she has no friends, nor any other family to keep her company. again, she talks to woodland creatures all day she's so desperate. she spends all her time just wishing but not really living. until one day the prince decides to drop on in and harmonize with her (instead of her own echo...miraculous!) and they fall in love. and, oh wait, there's the small detail of her mother calling a hit on her. i mean, she sends a woodsman to cut out snow white's heart! so here's this poor girl living in solitude and having some awful man out to massacre her and she has moments like in the forest where she's scared and where she doesn't think she'll make it. and she even eats the poisoned apple which damn near kills her. and yet still, true love prevails and the prince wakes her up from the spell and they ride off into the sunset.
and of course, jasmine. all the people around her are living her life for her...she can't leave her father's property. she has no human friends (well...rajah's pretty close to human i suppose) and she feels incredibly stifled and caged by the restrictions placed on her. and then she basically gets darn near sold into marriage with a complete and total asshole. she sneaks out, almost gets killed (for trying to give the little boy the apple), and almost gets arrested (until they find out the "street mouse" is a princess). yet somehow she falls in love and he shows her the ways of the world and saves her life and even when he's near death and even when there's laws preventing them from being together, they still find a way. she breaks all restrictions on her and totally pushes the envelope and she and her love benefit from it.
and you can't forget the little mermaid. i mean, ariel is only 16 and has hella to deal with. she's the youngest of all her sisters (which would be a problem in itself) and is the outcast. she's best friends with a friggin' guppie (the lowliest of fishes of course) and is under ridiculous supervision by her father. and when she finally falls in love, it's forbidden. her father disapproves and forces her to sell her voice (aka SOUL) to be with him. but even though a sea witch wants to kill her and even though she can't speak, she and eric are still destined to be together and fall madly in love. and in the end everyone comes around and it works out.
what i mean is...ok...why can't life be like that? even though we all have shitty times, why can't true love be so easy to find and so easy to keep a hold of? even though they may be a social outcast, even though they may be mistreated by our families or not have any friends, even though they may be in danger or forbidden from doing what they want or watched too closely by their parents, they always find a way for love.
why can't life be that easy? i feel like a social outcast more than i'd like to admit. my family understands NOTHING of my moods and how i feel, let alone the fact that my mother is a nutcase half of the time (literally). i'm leaving for a place where i'm gonna know MAYBE half a dozen people and i have NO guarantee that anyone will even want to know me. i know what i want to do with the rest of my life and my parents wont let me, nor would it ever happen; and i know who i want to spend my time with but that person i dont think completely shares my feelings. and my parents literally won't let me out of their sight anymore; and my mom cries when i tell her i want to be on my own. but somehow...i haven't found that way for love to magically thrive.
why CAN'T life be a disney movie? why CAN'T i prove everyone who says that the real world isn't a fairytale wrong? why CAN'T i have that picture-perfect love story where everything goes flawlessly and no one's emotions waver, even when faced with the toughest situations? because, let's face it, emotions have wavered, on both sides. and let's face it, aurora and snow white both fell asleep for god knows how long, cinderella went completely MIA, jasmine got aladdin locked up in prison, and still they were madly in love...
all i'm doing is going away for college and it's already a disaster.
people always say "life isn't a fairytale" and blah blah blah. like, i have been told to get my head out of the clouds on more than one occassion. but why CAN'T life be a fairytale? why can't that kind of love and storyline happen? i mean...every princess goes through difficulties and overcomes them. we all go through difficulties and maybe if we actually overcame them, then we'd end up living happily ever after with the prince(ss) of our dreams.
i mean, look at belle, for instance. so she starts out her story a complete social outcast. sure, they all think she's pretty but in their minds, her weirdness outweighs that prettiness, so they shun her and her father who is deemed crazy by the town. so when she goes to save him, she's imprisoned and trapped by a beast. and she cries A LOT and she rebells and even though she keeps that mysterious princess curiousity about her, she's really upset for a really long time. but eventually they warm up to eachother and he's the man of her dreams.
or cinderella. both her parents are dead (shocker number one) and she's forced to live in an abusive household where she's made a servant. she's verbally killed by her stepmother and awful sisters and is forced to do housework and ridiculous chores all day every day. i mean... the girl's friends with MICE. but somehow, miraculously, she ends up getting the one opportunity to find her prince charming by attending the ball. and it's love at first sight. and even though before she leaves, her dress gets torn to shreds, and even though after she gets back, she's locked in her bedroom by her stepmother, true love finds a way to conquer all and they're reunited and married.
then there's sleeping beauty. she actually does meet the man of her dreams, literally. and he's a total fox. but first shes raised without her parents, in secrecy, because basically maleficant is trying to kill her. she can't see her parents and she can have no real friends. then when she FINALLY finds love, she falls under the sleeping spell and can't enjoy our dear prince phillip. and with one simple kiss, with one tiny portrayal of his affection, she springs to life and they live happily ever after.
and what about snow white?? she's raised, without a father, and with a wicked queen for a mother. she's a servant in her own household, as well, being forced to mop and scrub...OUTSIDE (wtf is up with that? it always bugged me) all day. she has no friends, nor any other family to keep her company. again, she talks to woodland creatures all day she's so desperate. she spends all her time just wishing but not really living. until one day the prince decides to drop on in and harmonize with her (instead of her own echo...miraculous!) and they fall in love. and, oh wait, there's the small detail of her mother calling a hit on her. i mean, she sends a woodsman to cut out snow white's heart! so here's this poor girl living in solitude and having some awful man out to massacre her and she has moments like in the forest where she's scared and where she doesn't think she'll make it. and she even eats the poisoned apple which damn near kills her. and yet still, true love prevails and the prince wakes her up from the spell and they ride off into the sunset.
and of course, jasmine. all the people around her are living her life for her...she can't leave her father's property. she has no human friends (well...rajah's pretty close to human i suppose) and she feels incredibly stifled and caged by the restrictions placed on her. and then she basically gets darn near sold into marriage with a complete and total asshole. she sneaks out, almost gets killed (for trying to give the little boy the apple), and almost gets arrested (until they find out the "street mouse" is a princess). yet somehow she falls in love and he shows her the ways of the world and saves her life and even when he's near death and even when there's laws preventing them from being together, they still find a way. she breaks all restrictions on her and totally pushes the envelope and she and her love benefit from it.
and you can't forget the little mermaid. i mean, ariel is only 16 and has hella to deal with. she's the youngest of all her sisters (which would be a problem in itself) and is the outcast. she's best friends with a friggin' guppie (the lowliest of fishes of course) and is under ridiculous supervision by her father. and when she finally falls in love, it's forbidden. her father disapproves and forces her to sell her voice (aka SOUL) to be with him. but even though a sea witch wants to kill her and even though she can't speak, she and eric are still destined to be together and fall madly in love. and in the end everyone comes around and it works out.
what i mean is...ok...why can't life be like that? even though we all have shitty times, why can't true love be so easy to find and so easy to keep a hold of? even though they may be a social outcast, even though they may be mistreated by our families or not have any friends, even though they may be in danger or forbidden from doing what they want or watched too closely by their parents, they always find a way for love.
why can't life be that easy? i feel like a social outcast more than i'd like to admit. my family understands NOTHING of my moods and how i feel, let alone the fact that my mother is a nutcase half of the time (literally). i'm leaving for a place where i'm gonna know MAYBE half a dozen people and i have NO guarantee that anyone will even want to know me. i know what i want to do with the rest of my life and my parents wont let me, nor would it ever happen; and i know who i want to spend my time with but that person i dont think completely shares my feelings. and my parents literally won't let me out of their sight anymore; and my mom cries when i tell her i want to be on my own. but somehow...i haven't found that way for love to magically thrive.
why CAN'T life be a disney movie? why CAN'T i prove everyone who says that the real world isn't a fairytale wrong? why CAN'T i have that picture-perfect love story where everything goes flawlessly and no one's emotions waver, even when faced with the toughest situations? because, let's face it, emotions have wavered, on both sides. and let's face it, aurora and snow white both fell asleep for god knows how long, cinderella went completely MIA, jasmine got aladdin locked up in prison, and still they were madly in love...
all i'm doing is going away for college and it's already a disaster.