it's not the end of the world, erika.

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so i'm not too sure what's going on.
i don't even know how it ended up like this.
i just drew a line. ya know, "stood my ground."
but i didn't mean for it to end up like this.

i'm just letting it be?
i honestly don't know what to do about the whole situation.
and i don't mind sorting through my thoughts & my feelings.
i think i need to do that.

i mean i really don't ask for much.
and it may be something small but we both know how upset it gets me.
i was so mad when it happened, but it's something i expected.
i wasn't surprised at all.
i knew it would happen again and again and again..
i was mad.
but i didn't seem to care quite as much.
the words "i'm sorry" don't mean anything after the first few times.
and i don't know why people say what they don't mean.

i've got a lot on my mind.
but i'm sure i'll be fine.
in time, of course.
i always try to be optimistic.
there's no point in laying around being miserable.
i TRY to keep my mind off it.
life goes on, right?

anyway,
i had an interview at macy's for what i thought i applied for.
i applied to work in beauty & fragrances & they want me to work in the shoe department.
i would never!
and not even full time, just "seasonal."
i think NOT.
i'd waste so much gas just driving back and forth.
we all know i live in the boonies.
i'd rather substitute anyway.
even if it's not a for sure thing.
i really enjoyed it the last time.
so hopefully i get more phone calls to sub!

^_^

life is so strange.
it really is..
but i'm keeping my chin up.