my parents came to visit this past weekend... and surprisingly, it went well
my roommate has left
(she received the keys to her
new apartment a week ago)
and my living quarters
have become a place i can
now safely call my own.
how sweet solitude can be.
i can walk around naked
as much as i want.
i can sleep whenever i want.
i can listen to any kind of music
whenever i want,
as loud as i like.
watch movies whenever,
have people over till 3am,
nap at any time of the day,
take part in illegal activities
whenever i so desire.
sleepovers at guests' desires.
the liberty to do what i please
is wonderful.
the past few days have been cathartic,
spent doing various things
that have sent my mind in
a number of directions.
rearranging the room
to fit my needs
(pat is buying my half of the
futon, had to fill the space).
so much more room now.
i have a lounge :)
hanging out at the park
across the highway
in the middle of the night,
swinging on the swings,
sliding down the slides,
talking, laughing,
contemplating life and the identities
we supposedly have to create or define for ourselves,
smoking lucky strike cigarettes
and joints.
driving around south miami,
listening to alanis morissette's
jagged little pill
and screaming the lyrics from
'you oughta know'
and 'sunday morning'
of no doubt's
tragic kingdom.
lots of carole king.
listening to rufus wainwright's
'want one' album,
and feeling a certain nostalgia
for the way things were
at the end of freshman year
and beginning of the summer.
so much energy, passion, excitement...
thoughts seemed so much
clearer, so much more in place.
upset for so much that has happened,
wishing things could be different, better.
however, i have no regrets
and in hindsight
i've grown so much this year.
missing people,
feeling like i've
potentially lost some of them
or grown apart from them forever
just because that's the way life is.
i think that's the biggest disappointment
i've come across in my life so far.
feeling lonely at times,
languishing for intimacy
with another human.
perhaps with that girl
i have an idea of in my mind,
whom i have not met yet
and could possibly be happy with.
sad? pathetic?
i dunno,
hopeful.
that's what i like to think.
there's no rush, though.
time will tell its tale.
(continued...)
(she received the keys to her
new apartment a week ago)
and my living quarters
have become a place i can
now safely call my own.
how sweet solitude can be.
i can walk around naked
as much as i want.
i can sleep whenever i want.
i can listen to any kind of music
whenever i want,
as loud as i like.
watch movies whenever,
have people over till 3am,
nap at any time of the day,
take part in illegal activities
whenever i so desire.
sleepovers at guests' desires.
the liberty to do what i please
is wonderful.
the past few days have been cathartic,
spent doing various things
that have sent my mind in
a number of directions.
rearranging the room
to fit my needs
(pat is buying my half of the
futon, had to fill the space).
so much more room now.
i have a lounge :)
hanging out at the park
across the highway
in the middle of the night,
swinging on the swings,
sliding down the slides,
talking, laughing,
contemplating life and the identities
we supposedly have to create or define for ourselves,
smoking lucky strike cigarettes
and joints.
driving around south miami,
listening to alanis morissette's
jagged little pill
and screaming the lyrics from
'you oughta know'
and 'sunday morning'
of no doubt's
tragic kingdom.
lots of carole king.
listening to rufus wainwright's
'want one' album,
and feeling a certain nostalgia
for the way things were
at the end of freshman year
and beginning of the summer.
so much energy, passion, excitement...
thoughts seemed so much
clearer, so much more in place.
upset for so much that has happened,
wishing things could be different, better.
however, i have no regrets
and in hindsight
i've grown so much this year.
missing people,
feeling like i've
potentially lost some of them
or grown apart from them forever
just because that's the way life is.
i think that's the biggest disappointment
i've come across in my life so far.
feeling lonely at times,
languishing for intimacy
with another human.
perhaps with that girl
i have an idea of in my mind,
whom i have not met yet
and could possibly be happy with.
sad? pathetic?
i dunno,
hopeful.
that's what i like to think.
there's no rush, though.
time will tell its tale.
(continued...)