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[laandaluza]

I'm at one of those
points
in my life
where every song
I listen to
seems to have been
written about me.

The nice thing about this is
apparently I'm not alone
and I can only feel
that what the Dalai Lama said
about community,
connecting with fellow
human beings,
understanding,
compassion-
how important all of these qualities are-
is true.

I've been having
an emotional breakdown
the past few days,
but I'm dealing.
I don't feel comfortable
talking to anyone
about my problems
because I feel like they've
heard enough of it already,
and I don't want to bother them.
That or they just don't want to hear it.
Besides, I don't really know what to say...
I don't know where I stand
on the scale of anything.
I'm such a mess.
I didn't know it was
humanly possible
to feel the
extremes
of emotions
all at once.

I actually had
a really good conversation
with my mother last night
and realized she might not be
all that off.
I think she gets me better
than I led myself to believe.
I shouldn't be so hard on her.
I still think she's losing it though.
But that's probably just age.

I can't wait to go home
to see my family and friends.
I just want all of the time
between than and now
to pass quickly.
I want to feel home again.