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feel no need to read any of this.
honestly,
im serious.
you know how posting random shit on places like
livejournal
myspace
& xanga
seem to, not help your problems,
but make you feel better about them
well... this is one of those.
so, feel encouraged to skip down
to the next person on your
recently posted
list.
much oblidged.
k, im done. through. fini. ce n'est pas necessaire. im through holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night, just to hear "baby, it won't work." im done with calling eachother "baby", while we're at it. im pretty much finished with the urge to kiss you, but knowing that when i'll try i'll just get another "baby, it won't work." or "we can't." i dont want to tell you how much incredibly much i love you, and have you think that i only mean like a friend. or even more, i dont want to hear that from you and know its only meant to be a gesture of friendship, or a somewhat required response. so basically, im done. i cant just be your "friend." ive tried, and ive failed multiple times. crashed headfirst into the concreate from a 12 story burning building building kind of failed. and since that's what you want, that's what's gonna happen. but see, like i said, i cant. there's no happy medium. so its either all or nothing. thats right, all or nothing. i said it. i went there. all meaning you stop holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night and still just being friends. it means that you stop being so afraid of failure. or nothing. it means we stop it. stop holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night and talking to eachother every day on the phone and walking me to my locker and saying we have rehearsal just to hang out after school and spending the night at eachother's houses and always being together and taking vactions together and IMing for hours and taking pictures together and wearing your ID and - speaking. im miserable with you, but i know im a hundred times more miserable without you. looks like the odds are stacked against me, now aren't they? so this is hard for me to say, because i cant lose you. i cant. but i have to be through with acting like we do. look im sorry, but i dont feel it's required of me to appologize because i've tried for months - 7 months, and i still haven't got it. so you make a decision, you've always been better at that than i have, so here's your chance. tell me when you've figured it out.
here i go
restless heart
another lovely missadventure in the dark
all my friends
who knew me well
tell me not to wander down that road again
what they don't know
what they can't see
it's being on that road that makes me free
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
the water's deep
under the bridge
as i pass by our old house upon the ridge
all our sins
have washed away
now all that's left are all the things we didn't say
oh restless heart
you beat so fast
while my mind is telling me that it won't last
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
against the odds
i roll the dice
i guess my heart is won
despite all good advice
so grab your things
and come on it
and get to know your children once again
oh when does a fool
stop being a fool
and when is love oblidged to any rule
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
let's learn to give
let's talk things out
let's give them someone else to talk about
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
honestly,
im serious.
you know how posting random shit on places like
livejournal
myspace
& xanga
seem to, not help your problems,
but make you feel better about them
well... this is one of those.
so, feel encouraged to skip down
to the next person on your
recently posted
list.
much oblidged.
k, im done. through. fini. ce n'est pas necessaire. im through holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night, just to hear "baby, it won't work." im done with calling eachother "baby", while we're at it. im pretty much finished with the urge to kiss you, but knowing that when i'll try i'll just get another "baby, it won't work." or "we can't." i dont want to tell you how much incredibly much i love you, and have you think that i only mean like a friend. or even more, i dont want to hear that from you and know its only meant to be a gesture of friendship, or a somewhat required response. so basically, im done. i cant just be your "friend." ive tried, and ive failed multiple times. crashed headfirst into the concreate from a 12 story burning building building kind of failed. and since that's what you want, that's what's gonna happen. but see, like i said, i cant. there's no happy medium. so its either all or nothing. thats right, all or nothing. i said it. i went there. all meaning you stop holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night and still just being friends. it means that you stop being so afraid of failure. or nothing. it means we stop it. stop holding hands and cuddeling and walking through the hall under your arm and laying in wrapped up in eachother's arms till ungodly hours of the night and talking to eachother every day on the phone and walking me to my locker and saying we have rehearsal just to hang out after school and spending the night at eachother's houses and always being together and taking vactions together and IMing for hours and taking pictures together and wearing your ID and - speaking. im miserable with you, but i know im a hundred times more miserable without you. looks like the odds are stacked against me, now aren't they? so this is hard for me to say, because i cant lose you. i cant. but i have to be through with acting like we do. look im sorry, but i dont feel it's required of me to appologize because i've tried for months - 7 months, and i still haven't got it. so you make a decision, you've always been better at that than i have, so here's your chance. tell me when you've figured it out.
here i go
restless heart
another lovely missadventure in the dark
all my friends
who knew me well
tell me not to wander down that road again
what they don't know
what they can't see
it's being on that road that makes me free
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
the water's deep
under the bridge
as i pass by our old house upon the ridge
all our sins
have washed away
now all that's left are all the things we didn't say
oh restless heart
you beat so fast
while my mind is telling me that it won't last
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
against the odds
i roll the dice
i guess my heart is won
despite all good advice
so grab your things
and come on it
and get to know your children once again
oh when does a fool
stop being a fool
and when is love oblidged to any rule
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you
let's learn to give
let's talk things out
let's give them someone else to talk about
some say im running
but i know im falling
back to you