thoughtfulness
i have to take the SATs tomorrow morning. blech.
perhaps i should study.
i don't like talk of college.
it makes me sad.
yet, stephanie is right when she calls me a hypocrite.
i want to go to the University of Washington.
in seattle.
i don't like the thought of being stuck in high school (which i hate) when some of my best friends will be in college, a place i am so ready for and a place i long for.
and i don't like the thought of not having them be a part of my everyday life.
growing up is difficult.
friends are good.
i missed those of them who were gone today.
kathryn, sonia, austin, cynnie...
lunch was boring.
theatre was fun today.
i love stephanie schulte.
i hope i am being a good friend to her.
i try.
i so wish i could see the bauers before next summer.
i wish mommy could take me to NYC with her when she goes in january.
that i wish with all of me.
idina will still be in wicked.
i could see her.
but we can't afford to send me. (the preschool's paying for mom)
it makes me cry.
and then i feel bad
because i know i'm being selfish.
we're going as a family this summer
but idina won't be there.
is it weird that i want to see her perform so bad i cry?
i wish all problems could be solved with hugs, like back when we were in kindergarten.
Mrs. Garner gave me an A- on my persuasive essay!
i'm so proud of it.
i hope kate makes it to GHP
i really do
she deserves it
Quote of the Day: "Gimme some of that AP-ness!" -Charles Ford
(say it out loud)
love and tears to you all,
StephanieLynne