A Mixture of Things
First off, I'm back home from one of the best experiences of my life, TiP was awesome, and I can't wait until next year (although it will be my 4th year). I'm now looking forward to go back to school, so I can continue learning. The staff (minus Tiffany) was great and really supportive of everyone. They helped make it everything I wanted it to be. ^_^
Second is a rant. My mom is under the impression that I need to wear makeup everywhere. I am not majorly feminine, and although I have my moments, makeup is not one of them. I see no need when my skin is clearer than most peoples and, other than in August when my freckles are insufferable (and the make up is needed to prevent them because I have a high risk of skin cancer) or the occasional pimple, I never wear it, unless for a special occasion. My FB picture is one of a head shot I took for my dad for his birthday, and various other acting endeavors. People have told me that I "actually look pretty". I feel as if this is biased and society expectations, which claim women are not pretty unless they are wearing makeup. This bothers me more than it should, and my mother will not let go of this. She has harped on it constantly. Grr...
Third is a not so small rant. I do not need a boyfriend, Just because I am straight (or really, any orientation) doesn't mean I am deficient if I do not have a "special someone". I am still young. Just becuase people may have "tons of guys" pining over them and I don't, only means that guys my age are only looking for the girls who "put out". They are immature beings who care nothing for those who, although plain, have a great mind. I go to freaking college classes over the summer, and I'm still in high school. I could pass 3 years of English, just with the work I've done! I spend 10 hours in a classroom for 3 weeks (less on Saturdays and Sundays, but if this was a public school, I could get sooo much credit.) I work harder than most of my classmates do, and although they are mediocre grades, that doesn't matter! A B at my school is the same as a A+ at any other school. I am satisfied with my work ethic and I do well, I have been on honor roll 1/2 of my freshman year. Freshman year is the hardest (except for Junior year), because it is a transition. But I still do not need a boyfriend. It is not a university requirement that I have had a boyfriend before I go. I am happy with the way I am. Just becuase people can't see that, doesn't mean that I should pay for it. Just because I manage to win 2 games of "Never Have I Ever" doesn't mean I need a boyfriend. I LIKE being single. I don't need a male to tell me I am capable of doing something, I myself know that I am capable. Stop bugging me!!!!
Fourth is the apology for the rants. And thanks for listening.
Fifth is a happy moment. I have an anime convention I can go to in 2009. SInce I can't go to the one this year in November because it's my grandparent's 60th anniversary (I love them, but why did they have to get married over Thanksgiving weekend?), which I don't really mind, I am happy that there is one over JC Weekend (April 10-12). I really don't mind going to their anniversary party. I am not as ungrateful as I sound. Really. Or I try not to be anyway. I'm happy for them, and hope they remain happy for quite a while. But I have one that is relatively cheap for my budget, and will be at the right time, as long as I have no choir things (which I may boycott if there is).
Sixth is the fact my mother (again), doesn't think I have enough friends. I have 6 very good ones. I see no need to have 60
"best friends" in my "unincorporated town". I don't understand why I can't have more long-distance friends, and have a close, trusted circle. I don't need more friends! I have 3 more years with people I don't like, and then I am moving far, far away. Like England (again). Or amybe Massachusets (although that's still in the same continent). I am leaving as soon as I can. I have more chance of meeting my long distance friends at college than meeting my old classmates. There are only 80 members of my class. There are more than 80 colleges. Most will go to UT or A&M. I will see them in 2021, but not before then. I want these next 3 years to be, not "making friends", but getting into my dream college. I want to live then, not now. Then matters. HIgh school is just something to pass thruogh, something to put up with. In other words, I don't need more friends!
Randomness done.... sorry. I feel better now...
Second is a rant. My mom is under the impression that I need to wear makeup everywhere. I am not majorly feminine, and although I have my moments, makeup is not one of them. I see no need when my skin is clearer than most peoples and, other than in August when my freckles are insufferable (and the make up is needed to prevent them because I have a high risk of skin cancer) or the occasional pimple, I never wear it, unless for a special occasion. My FB picture is one of a head shot I took for my dad for his birthday, and various other acting endeavors. People have told me that I "actually look pretty". I feel as if this is biased and society expectations, which claim women are not pretty unless they are wearing makeup. This bothers me more than it should, and my mother will not let go of this. She has harped on it constantly. Grr...
Third is a not so small rant. I do not need a boyfriend, Just because I am straight (or really, any orientation) doesn't mean I am deficient if I do not have a "special someone". I am still young. Just becuase people may have "tons of guys" pining over them and I don't, only means that guys my age are only looking for the girls who "put out". They are immature beings who care nothing for those who, although plain, have a great mind. I go to freaking college classes over the summer, and I'm still in high school. I could pass 3 years of English, just with the work I've done! I spend 10 hours in a classroom for 3 weeks (less on Saturdays and Sundays, but if this was a public school, I could get sooo much credit.) I work harder than most of my classmates do, and although they are mediocre grades, that doesn't matter! A B at my school is the same as a A+ at any other school. I am satisfied with my work ethic and I do well, I have been on honor roll 1/2 of my freshman year. Freshman year is the hardest (except for Junior year), because it is a transition. But I still do not need a boyfriend. It is not a university requirement that I have had a boyfriend before I go. I am happy with the way I am. Just becuase people can't see that, doesn't mean that I should pay for it. Just because I manage to win 2 games of "Never Have I Ever" doesn't mean I need a boyfriend. I LIKE being single. I don't need a male to tell me I am capable of doing something, I myself know that I am capable. Stop bugging me!!!!
Fourth is the apology for the rants. And thanks for listening.
Fifth is a happy moment. I have an anime convention I can go to in 2009. SInce I can't go to the one this year in November because it's my grandparent's 60th anniversary (I love them, but why did they have to get married over Thanksgiving weekend?), which I don't really mind, I am happy that there is one over JC Weekend (April 10-12). I really don't mind going to their anniversary party. I am not as ungrateful as I sound. Really. Or I try not to be anyway. I'm happy for them, and hope they remain happy for quite a while. But I have one that is relatively cheap for my budget, and will be at the right time, as long as I have no choir things (which I may boycott if there is).
Sixth is the fact my mother (again), doesn't think I have enough friends. I have 6 very good ones. I see no need to have 60
"best friends" in my "unincorporated town". I don't understand why I can't have more long-distance friends, and have a close, trusted circle. I don't need more friends! I have 3 more years with people I don't like, and then I am moving far, far away. Like England (again). Or amybe Massachusets (although that's still in the same continent). I am leaving as soon as I can. I have more chance of meeting my long distance friends at college than meeting my old classmates. There are only 80 members of my class. There are more than 80 colleges. Most will go to UT or A&M. I will see them in 2021, but not before then. I want these next 3 years to be, not "making friends", but getting into my dream college. I want to live then, not now. Then matters. HIgh school is just something to pass thruogh, something to put up with. In other words, I don't need more friends!
Randomness done.... sorry. I feel better now...