I love new beginnings.
I always make new years resolutions. Usually the open ended sort, not one in which I actually need to achieve a particular thing, more to improve a certain aspect of myself. I always have far too many. I have a bit of an obsession with self improvement, which can be both good and bad sometimes.
-To not stress about school- but to try really hard. Please try to procrastinate less.
-To go running. Twice or more a week. To eat regularly and healthily. I don't want to have body image issues this year.
-Learn to sew. Make and alter clothes.
-Get a music theory tutor and practice cello every day.
-Read all those books I've been meaning to read.
-Knit a scarf.
-See more live music, and try and make it to my first music festival.
-Surround myself with friends and people I love. Have the confidence to meet new people and be more sociable.
-Try to be as selfless as I can.
-Buy an excellent camera, take lots of photos. Post them in this journal. (I recently realised I hardly ever do this. Which is something I think I'll regret in the future.)
-Be more adventurous with what I wear. Have confidence.
-Don't take life too seriously, or things too personally. (This is important.)
-Be optimistic.
I'm sure there are many people out there with similar resolutions. I have a good feeling about 2009 so far.
Right now I'm finidng it strange and a bit difficult getting back into the swing of writing things. I've been living in a bit of a bubble the last few months, school holidays often lead me to filling up my day with menial tasks, wallowing about a bit and often falling into bad cycles of guilt and unhappiness.
I'd like to change that. When it's not holidays all I want is to have them, and I get carried away with all the creative things I'd like to do. Anyway, I'll get there. I know today is technically just another day, but I like the idea of starting points and new beginnings.
2008 was a good year. I moved to Melbourne, I met many people, I gained so much independence. I missed my beautiful old house but never missed Geelong. I moved into an eco village in Brunswick and felt very much at home. I got a wonderful job (which I shall write about very soon, it deserves an entry of its own.) I also had cycles of anxiety, sadness and my cat got run over. But 2008 was the year I opened up to people and realised some of the things going on in my head didn't actually need to be there. I was told I had EDNOS and BDD. They are just labels, I don't know if I believed it. Whatever it was is almost behind me. I am very self aware. I developed this absolute awe and respect for my wonderful Irish literature teacher, acknowledged the fact that I get crushes on girls just as much as boys, but chose to ignore labels for now and just go with feelings. I have developed more confidence than I could've imagined.
Ah, stream of consciousness ramblings about a year of events... there are many other things to say, which will come in due time.
In the mean time, if you happen to have read this. Feel free to respond with ponderings of the year just past and hopes for the year just begun. x
(photo by Mark Borthwick.)
Also, I'm going to New Zealand in a few days with a friend. For three weeks. I'm excited about that.
-To not stress about school- but to try really hard. Please try to procrastinate less.
-To go running. Twice or more a week. To eat regularly and healthily. I don't want to have body image issues this year.
-Learn to sew. Make and alter clothes.
-Get a music theory tutor and practice cello every day.
-Read all those books I've been meaning to read.
-Knit a scarf.
-See more live music, and try and make it to my first music festival.
-Surround myself with friends and people I love. Have the confidence to meet new people and be more sociable.
-Try to be as selfless as I can.
-Buy an excellent camera, take lots of photos. Post them in this journal. (I recently realised I hardly ever do this. Which is something I think I'll regret in the future.)
-Be more adventurous with what I wear. Have confidence.
-Don't take life too seriously, or things too personally. (This is important.)
-Be optimistic.
I'm sure there are many people out there with similar resolutions. I have a good feeling about 2009 so far.
Right now I'm finidng it strange and a bit difficult getting back into the swing of writing things. I've been living in a bit of a bubble the last few months, school holidays often lead me to filling up my day with menial tasks, wallowing about a bit and often falling into bad cycles of guilt and unhappiness.
I'd like to change that. When it's not holidays all I want is to have them, and I get carried away with all the creative things I'd like to do. Anyway, I'll get there. I know today is technically just another day, but I like the idea of starting points and new beginnings.
2008 was a good year. I moved to Melbourne, I met many people, I gained so much independence. I missed my beautiful old house but never missed Geelong. I moved into an eco village in Brunswick and felt very much at home. I got a wonderful job (which I shall write about very soon, it deserves an entry of its own.) I also had cycles of anxiety, sadness and my cat got run over. But 2008 was the year I opened up to people and realised some of the things going on in my head didn't actually need to be there. I was told I had EDNOS and BDD. They are just labels, I don't know if I believed it. Whatever it was is almost behind me. I am very self aware. I developed this absolute awe and respect for my wonderful Irish literature teacher, acknowledged the fact that I get crushes on girls just as much as boys, but chose to ignore labels for now and just go with feelings. I have developed more confidence than I could've imagined.
Ah, stream of consciousness ramblings about a year of events... there are many other things to say, which will come in due time.
In the mean time, if you happen to have read this. Feel free to respond with ponderings of the year just past and hopes for the year just begun. x
(photo by Mark Borthwick.)
Also, I'm going to New Zealand in a few days with a friend. For three weeks. I'm excited about that.