::shaking::
I feel so fucking lonely and lost... For the past couple of nights I can only get 2 hours of sleep. Im such a fucking mess... Honestly I didn't think being alone and not having chelsea anymore would affect me this much...:starts crying again:: I really need to suck it up and shut up. Im never going to with her ever again and it sucks soo much. Why didn't I just fucking listen to her and push passed the bullshit i was going through. Why did it take until now to realize how much i love her and care for her. Why was i so fucking selfish! errr! Im going to not talk to her until prom and try to fix myself and pray to fucking she changes into the old her and takes me back. If not ill have to move on...