Im having random anxiety attacks. ::cant stop crying::
I wish I could put everything thats going on in my head into words. That way I'd be able to vent but waiting too long and not venting my anger to anyone makes it all just build up into this one huge mess in my head. Lately I just feel like hitting the first person that pisses me off. Or maybe just downing a ridiculous amount of valium and vodka. Speaking of valium ::digs around in pockets:: anywho... I wish I had the strength to commit suicide that way people wouldn't have to deal with me and my problems. I see it as doing everyone a favor. At this point in my life I only have a year and a half left of school. Technically half a year left because people say that senior year goes by really fast. Anyway, im scared shitless... I have absolutley no clue as to what the fuck im going to do after high school. So far ive pretty much failed through out my whole life. Mainly as a person though. Maybe one day I can get the balls to actually off myself. ::writes a future will::