Nov 24, 2006 14:14
i don't comprehend how you could be so hypocritical and not stop, for one second, to realize how messed up you are in your actions. i don't understand how you can ask me to go to you, and tell you everything and then see everything i told you posted on your livejournal. do you not think? dead honestly, do you not use your brain? because i know you have one. trust is not longer an issue with me, it's now an issue with you. i can't trust you worth a shit, with anything and that's the saddest thing i've ever had to come to terms with. sure, i would love to consider you my best friend, but how can i when everything i tell you someone else has to know? i'm sorry, but erica is not my best friend. erica doesn't need to know everything. and you can't seem to contain anything at all that you hear or see. i'm telling you now, i will never trust you again. i don't trust you now, i won't later, and i won't the next day. i have plenty of friends that i can vent to and i honestly don't need to run to you. i would like to, i would honestly love to have your shoulder to lean on but not when everything i tell you is for the public to see. i don't think you've ever done anything stupider.
the truth, the reason i didn't want to discuss it, is because if you slip and say the wrong thing about her i will leave you quicker than you can think of apologizing, quicker than you can take a second to breathe. i'll leave you wishing you never opened your mouth to begin with because you can fuck with me all you want. torment me, call me names, torture me with your hours and hours of bitching but DO NOT fuck with her. she's the most important girl in my entire life and she always will be. she was there when i needed someone the most and when i need someone again she will still be there so don't fucking put her in a position she doesn't need to be in.
i still can't believe for one second that you thought what you did was even a little bit alright. why would you think for one second that it wouldn't get me this upset? i don't know if you haven't realized that she's the most important thing to me on this entire planet or if you're just a straight up bitch. i honestly don't know.
i'm sorry if you think you can walk all over people like donna and talk all the shit you're full of about people but just don't fucking mess with her. i'll take your shit. hell, i'll take your stupid crap until i die because to be dead honest with you, it takes a lot more to get me upset. but god fucking dammit, you have to be the dumbest son of a bitch in the world to fuck with someone that means that much to me.
are you kidding me?
you may not notice, but you just might have screwed up everything we've ever had.