If you're bored then you're boring
Boundaries. I'm the type of person that doesn't like to have emotional boundaries.
I'm comfortable with people who seem to accept and like me for everything I am and some of the things I'm not. The more comfortable the less boundaries. But not everyone is as open about emotions as I am. Actually, too many people have walls up between themselves and other people. And I scale walls. People don't like that I try to get in when they try so desperately to keep everyone out.
I hate that.
When I like someone, I want to give myself to them. I want them to know me, I want to trust them with my secrets and that scares some. I'm different and unconventional and sometimes people can't accept that I get close quickly.
If I find someone I deem worthy of my affection I want to give it to them all the time. Sometimes I guess I come across as clingy and stupid and possessive, but really I just like to show people through touches and deep smiles and playfulness.
It hurts to have my affections rejected. So very much.
Each time I tell myself I'll do things differently next time but I can't deny my nature.
I love to love people. That doesn't mean my love is cheap, or that I'm fickle and give it away. Everyone deserves to be loved and accepted and appreciated.
I live for deep connections and when I put time and emotions in to someone it means I want to know them for the long haul, as long as that may be.
I'm so hurt. I don't even know what I did, or if I even DID anything...
Every time I get comfortable enough to be real and affectionate with someone and they reject it, it's like being stabbed in the heart. It makes me doubt myself, because I thought we had a good relationship. I think that I shouldn't be that way, that I should be more distant or cold. And I hate that.
I like liking myself, but sadly, my opinion of myself can sometimes pertain to what others think of me. When I feel loved and appreciated by friends and such I love myself and when I'm alone I feel like I'm doing something wrong and that's why I'm alone and bored.
I'm comfortable with people who seem to accept and like me for everything I am and some of the things I'm not. The more comfortable the less boundaries. But not everyone is as open about emotions as I am. Actually, too many people have walls up between themselves and other people. And I scale walls. People don't like that I try to get in when they try so desperately to keep everyone out.
I hate that.
When I like someone, I want to give myself to them. I want them to know me, I want to trust them with my secrets and that scares some. I'm different and unconventional and sometimes people can't accept that I get close quickly.
If I find someone I deem worthy of my affection I want to give it to them all the time. Sometimes I guess I come across as clingy and stupid and possessive, but really I just like to show people through touches and deep smiles and playfulness.
It hurts to have my affections rejected. So very much.
Each time I tell myself I'll do things differently next time but I can't deny my nature.
I love to love people. That doesn't mean my love is cheap, or that I'm fickle and give it away. Everyone deserves to be loved and accepted and appreciated.
I live for deep connections and when I put time and emotions in to someone it means I want to know them for the long haul, as long as that may be.
I'm so hurt. I don't even know what I did, or if I even DID anything...
Every time I get comfortable enough to be real and affectionate with someone and they reject it, it's like being stabbed in the heart. It makes me doubt myself, because I thought we had a good relationship. I think that I shouldn't be that way, that I should be more distant or cold. And I hate that.
I like liking myself, but sadly, my opinion of myself can sometimes pertain to what others think of me. When I feel loved and appreciated by friends and such I love myself and when I'm alone I feel like I'm doing something wrong and that's why I'm alone and bored.