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Only once have I seriously not been able to post something on the internet because of humiliation or fear of responses or because I was ashamed, until today. I couldn't post 2 things today. That's so not like me. Sure, I've typed things up and decided it wasn't worth it or it was stupid. But... I just couldn't do it today. I was too scared. That scares me.
And again, only a couple of times I can remember have I ever hesitated to call my BFF when I really needed to talk. Only a couple times. Until today. I must have picked up the phone 3 or 4 times before I decided I wasn't going to bother her with my selfish problems. It didn't scare me though. I think I made the right choice. It's just weird. That's all.
And again, today I called Albert to make plans and he didn't call me back. His phone might still be dead but that's not the point. The point is that I left 1 message in the middle of the day and didn't call him back later. And I didn't call anyone else either, even though maybe I should've called Courtney back. I knew about plans too and I didn't call them either. I didn't want to tag along. I let them have fun and I was a little bored but I was a little proud too. In a way I kind of feel stronger. Less clingy. It's good I think.
I didn't really do much of anything important today. But I think I found out some important things about myself and others. I don't know what but I feel like I have. Somehow. From my unposted posts and my responses to things and such.
I'll let you know what I've learned if I ever figure it out.
This was pretty pointless. Sorry. I felt the urge.
I hope you all sleep well. <3
And again, only a couple of times I can remember have I ever hesitated to call my BFF when I really needed to talk. Only a couple times. Until today. I must have picked up the phone 3 or 4 times before I decided I wasn't going to bother her with my selfish problems. It didn't scare me though. I think I made the right choice. It's just weird. That's all.
And again, today I called Albert to make plans and he didn't call me back. His phone might still be dead but that's not the point. The point is that I left 1 message in the middle of the day and didn't call him back later. And I didn't call anyone else either, even though maybe I should've called Courtney back. I knew about plans too and I didn't call them either. I didn't want to tag along. I let them have fun and I was a little bored but I was a little proud too. In a way I kind of feel stronger. Less clingy. It's good I think.
I didn't really do much of anything important today. But I think I found out some important things about myself and others. I don't know what but I feel like I have. Somehow. From my unposted posts and my responses to things and such.
I'll let you know what I've learned if I ever figure it out.
This was pretty pointless. Sorry. I felt the urge.
I hope you all sleep well. <3