needs an update/bort.
I was just reading over this elgay and it sucks. I should only back up the early stuff that makes no sense, at least that shit was funny. Not like now. I'm so lame now. This site is ripe for a shutdown anyway. Hardly anyone writes anymore, my raw dogs comm is always the same kind of really basic post asking for validation or support because the poster has no time to do their own research. And SIUD hasn't had a post worth reading in a long time. It's almost funny that people go thru the trouble of writing long ass posts to be told only "Break up", "Talk to her" or "See a therapist" 98 times in the comments. They obviously could never have thought of that on their own.
But hey, my life is super interesting. I don't even feel like writing about it now, but for some weird reason this piece of crap blog post seems more valuable to the internerds than my other blog that is actually useful. I started the French dog blog but I kinda almost feel like people who don't have a good relationship with their dog or who have these basic sorts of problems don't actually want to do anything to change the situation. I guess they want to keep blaming their "bad dog" for things not going well, or they find it's a neat, isolated way for them to take out their frustrations. Like maybe having dog issues allows them to think that the dog is the source of their problems instead of them. Or they don't give a shit. People with dog problems are mostly just like my complaint in paragraph one: looking for validation, support or a quick fix instead of doing their own research. Neoteny/neophilia my ass, Desmond Morris. Yeah, I'm reading the Naked Ape.
I'm not mad tho! I think part of the reason why I'm finding people suck so much is because the group of Those I Can Feel Superior With has a big, shiny, wonderful new um, member. It's really facinating (to me!) I really feel like I get to be exactly myself. I feel ACCEPTED. I'm so mentally ON right now, there is this clarity that is downright weird. I think it is compatibility. It turns me on. The experience has been so dramatically different from one romantic interest to the next. The last one was so befuddling. Really confounding. Maybe I'm getting the hang of it. I'm lucky in a lot of ways.. first of all that I have managed to find people to be interested in. I think there have been more and more in recent times. And to be able to pursue and win the object of my affections. I have a pretty fucking good success rate, but I guess it makes sense that if we look like we're going to get along, the other person would be interested too. It's a pretty basic drive. But now that it's a hetro thing, dudes are not supposed to be into "aggressive" girls. Maybe I'm less bold than I used to be. I definitely am. This thing feels more equal than I ever have before, tho. Not to say it's equal exactly, but whatever. Clarity? Yeah. I feel lucky about my fluidity, too. When I wanted to be a lesbian, ok it took a while to put into practice, but I was taking control. Not everyone can do that kind of thing. Twice.
The discovery of this awesome new person is such a trip--super exciting exploration, even though it mostly consists of lying down in a stupor encapsulated in this thick, steamy, delicious bubble for two. That's all this entry comes down to I guess. I'm in love.
But hey, my life is super interesting. I don't even feel like writing about it now, but for some weird reason this piece of crap blog post seems more valuable to the internerds than my other blog that is actually useful. I started the French dog blog but I kinda almost feel like people who don't have a good relationship with their dog or who have these basic sorts of problems don't actually want to do anything to change the situation. I guess they want to keep blaming their "bad dog" for things not going well, or they find it's a neat, isolated way for them to take out their frustrations. Like maybe having dog issues allows them to think that the dog is the source of their problems instead of them. Or they don't give a shit. People with dog problems are mostly just like my complaint in paragraph one: looking for validation, support or a quick fix instead of doing their own research. Neoteny/neophilia my ass, Desmond Morris. Yeah, I'm reading the Naked Ape.
I'm not mad tho! I think part of the reason why I'm finding people suck so much is because the group of Those I Can Feel Superior With has a big, shiny, wonderful new um, member. It's really facinating (to me!) I really feel like I get to be exactly myself. I feel ACCEPTED. I'm so mentally ON right now, there is this clarity that is downright weird. I think it is compatibility. It turns me on. The experience has been so dramatically different from one romantic interest to the next. The last one was so befuddling. Really confounding. Maybe I'm getting the hang of it. I'm lucky in a lot of ways.. first of all that I have managed to find people to be interested in. I think there have been more and more in recent times. And to be able to pursue and win the object of my affections. I have a pretty fucking good success rate, but I guess it makes sense that if we look like we're going to get along, the other person would be interested too. It's a pretty basic drive. But now that it's a hetro thing, dudes are not supposed to be into "aggressive" girls. Maybe I'm less bold than I used to be. I definitely am. This thing feels more equal than I ever have before, tho. Not to say it's equal exactly, but whatever. Clarity? Yeah. I feel lucky about my fluidity, too. When I wanted to be a lesbian, ok it took a while to put into practice, but I was taking control. Not everyone can do that kind of thing. Twice.
The discovery of this awesome new person is such a trip--super exciting exploration, even though it mostly consists of lying down in a stupor encapsulated in this thick, steamy, delicious bubble for two. That's all this entry comes down to I guess. I'm in love.