what i am to you, is not real

[la_petite_ange]

do you think it is possible to miss someone alot that you talk to all the time? i think it is. cos even if you talk to them, it doesnt mean you see them, or hang out with them, it just means you talk. but then again, it does make hanging out super dee duper dee fun. but then there is that saying, absence makes the heart grow fonder. i dont know how i feel about that saying. maybe because if they aren't around, they aren't able to mess up and you aren't able to get mad at them and they can't really hurt you and you never think about the downside to them, you only think of the positive things. which is kinda good, but not really realistic. then again, when im remembering people, i like to remember the good things and not the bad. i guess im a idealist. maybe. i dont really know. so overall, i agree that absence does make the heart grow fonder, but i think the saying needs to take into consideration that it makes the heart grow numb as well. not completely numb, but a little.

all in all, i miss you a whole bunch. but this is how things are now and i have accepted that and am quite content because you are a best friend and you always will be no matter what and that, my friend, is excellant.