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Edited to note that this part was started on Sunday: I was at my RWA chapter's annual one day workshop on saturday. Carla Neggers and Anne Stuart were speaking; carla about pacing and plotting and anne about characterization. I don't really read either of their books so it wasn't quite so thrilling for me in terms of what they were saying. I did like hanging out with my chapter. They rock, as always. I did have a couple of "a ha!" moments about my story, so, hey, maybe i'll actually finish something. I envy the discipline of my friends who can complete things.
And now it is Tuesday morning. I woke up this morning a little late and thought, no big deal i have food at school. I bought the one day old bagel slices from stop and shop. I put them in the freezer on friday. I didn't eat them on Monday. To me this says that I should be able to eat bagel slices and cream cheese for breakfast this morning which is good because i am in a horrible mood and i think this has to do with how hungry i am. I cheerfully go to the freezer and NOTHING IS IN THERE BUT SOMEONE'S FUCKING WATER BOTTLE! why are the people at my school such assholes? Can someone clue me in on that? The bottom part of the refrigerator stinks because no one cleans out anything, but the top part is barren and smells fine. Hence the bagels were put up there. I AM SO CRANKY.
I'm actually concerned about how quick I am to irritate recently. I spent one full day with students last week. I went home early M, Tu and Th. I made it through all of W and F, but on F I had a teacher in service day so no students. What the heck is going on with me? I don't mean that i'm mildly irritated either. When that first moment happens I feel like a maniac. I want to throw things and scream and and yell and cry and throw more things and punch people. What is that about?
And now it is Tuesday morning. I woke up this morning a little late and thought, no big deal i have food at school. I bought the one day old bagel slices from stop and shop. I put them in the freezer on friday. I didn't eat them on Monday. To me this says that I should be able to eat bagel slices and cream cheese for breakfast this morning which is good because i am in a horrible mood and i think this has to do with how hungry i am. I cheerfully go to the freezer and NOTHING IS IN THERE BUT SOMEONE'S FUCKING WATER BOTTLE! why are the people at my school such assholes? Can someone clue me in on that? The bottom part of the refrigerator stinks because no one cleans out anything, but the top part is barren and smells fine. Hence the bagels were put up there. I AM SO CRANKY.
I'm actually concerned about how quick I am to irritate recently. I spent one full day with students last week. I went home early M, Tu and Th. I made it through all of W and F, but on F I had a teacher in service day so no students. What the heck is going on with me? I don't mean that i'm mildly irritated either. When that first moment happens I feel like a maniac. I want to throw things and scream and and yell and cry and throw more things and punch people. What is that about?