I'm still standing
It's been five long months without you
and I still find myself remembering all the times
spent making memories.
Times I'd like to erase.
Memories shattered by your deceit.
It's been five long months standing on my own
and I still find myself overwhelmed with self-doubt
wondering, analyzing, dwelling.
But there's nothing wrong with me.
The problem lies within you.
It's been five long months.
Do you ever stop and reminisce?
It's been five months too long
and all I want is to forget your very name.
.....................................
It's been 5 months since my trip to Spain and I feel like I've grown so much. I'm still dealing with the remnants of heartbreak, while moving on with someone new. It's not easy. In fact, it's hard to keep my mind straight and my heart carefree. Unlike before, I'm more wary, cautious, and assuming. I think I'm still trying to recover from all the self-loathing and self-doubt I was consumed in throughout the majority of this semester. But, focusing on my work and surrounding myself with some pretty wonderful new faces has given me the strength and happiness needed to keep my head held high.
Onto more exciting things...
Graduation is around the corner and I have to admit that I'm really looking forward to beginning the next chapter in my life. Teaching has really reaffirmed my passion for Spanish and connecting with people. The work I have produced this semester has been quite successful and nothing gives me more of a rush than the joy I feel when I see students understanding and even liking what I teach. I'm incredibly nervous about student teaching in January, but I know that Mrs. Lagnese will be such an inspiration to my teaching. I can't wait to start the journey....
So, where will I be post-graduation? I'm yearning for Portland, but the likelihood of attending PSU for graduate school seems to be lessening. I know the credibility and challenge of Middlebury is what I need to further develop myself as a Spanish speaker. I want to be the very best I can be and I want to feel that I have everything under control. But, I need to earn money before I can tackle graduate school, so I suppose it will be back to Atlanta for the interim. It's not my ideal situation, but it is better than staying in Western North Carolina. I love it here, but it's time to go somewhere else. The memories made here have been absolutely pretty amazing, but it's time to start living! I can't wait...
Currently, the stresses of projects and finals and teaching certification tests are overwhelming. But, I'll make it through. The holiday break will provide enough time to recuperate before some more stress begins at the high school. Ha ha.
I'll end here for now. I have decided to frequent this blog, as it is apparent I need the therapy of writing down my thoughts so I can keep my wits about me. We'll see...
and I still find myself remembering all the times
spent making memories.
Times I'd like to erase.
Memories shattered by your deceit.
It's been five long months standing on my own
and I still find myself overwhelmed with self-doubt
wondering, analyzing, dwelling.
But there's nothing wrong with me.
The problem lies within you.
It's been five long months.
Do you ever stop and reminisce?
It's been five months too long
and all I want is to forget your very name.
.....................................
It's been 5 months since my trip to Spain and I feel like I've grown so much. I'm still dealing with the remnants of heartbreak, while moving on with someone new. It's not easy. In fact, it's hard to keep my mind straight and my heart carefree. Unlike before, I'm more wary, cautious, and assuming. I think I'm still trying to recover from all the self-loathing and self-doubt I was consumed in throughout the majority of this semester. But, focusing on my work and surrounding myself with some pretty wonderful new faces has given me the strength and happiness needed to keep my head held high.
Onto more exciting things...
Graduation is around the corner and I have to admit that I'm really looking forward to beginning the next chapter in my life. Teaching has really reaffirmed my passion for Spanish and connecting with people. The work I have produced this semester has been quite successful and nothing gives me more of a rush than the joy I feel when I see students understanding and even liking what I teach. I'm incredibly nervous about student teaching in January, but I know that Mrs. Lagnese will be such an inspiration to my teaching. I can't wait to start the journey....
So, where will I be post-graduation? I'm yearning for Portland, but the likelihood of attending PSU for graduate school seems to be lessening. I know the credibility and challenge of Middlebury is what I need to further develop myself as a Spanish speaker. I want to be the very best I can be and I want to feel that I have everything under control. But, I need to earn money before I can tackle graduate school, so I suppose it will be back to Atlanta for the interim. It's not my ideal situation, but it is better than staying in Western North Carolina. I love it here, but it's time to go somewhere else. The memories made here have been absolutely pretty amazing, but it's time to start living! I can't wait...
Currently, the stresses of projects and finals and teaching certification tests are overwhelming. But, I'll make it through. The holiday break will provide enough time to recuperate before some more stress begins at the high school. Ha ha.
I'll end here for now. I have decided to frequent this blog, as it is apparent I need the therapy of writing down my thoughts so I can keep my wits about me. We'll see...