Another pamphlet about the meaning of life

[la_maschera]

There's nothing to do
Thought what I can do
And pamphlet was the first
that came so sudden to my mind
I waited for a call - in vain,
there's nothing to await.
I searched for words, for definitions,
for funny moments in my life,
remembered all the past.
But that's irrelevant today.
Thought I could dye my hair,
or maybe cut them off,
go to a dancing course
or learn the chess.
But where am I?
A field's in front of me
and endless numbers, one, two, three...
My move - and I am the winner,
the second one - and bang!
Sometimes I know how to react,
I am even able to predict.
But if there's a decision to be taken?
What shall I do? What's to be done?
I cannot count!
Is it my destiny or pure coincidence?
To be the best or just to loose,
it doesn't matter in a game.
There's always second chance.
I haven't thrown my dice,
I am at the edge of life
Without any moves behind.