Don't stop believin'. Hold on to that feelin'.
Sometimes the fleetingness of life just occurs to you all of sudden. Unexpectedly and violently it occurs to you how short our time on this planet is. On one hand it makes you sick that you might not accomplish everything you set out to do. But on the other hand it makes you appreciate every good thing that has already happened to you. All these thoughts invaded my little brain last night as my head hit the pillow. I don't usually allow myself moments to ponder such deep thoughts on mortality as I find many of them depressing and non-productive. But I couldn't help it.
More than any other daily worry I have is that I won't succeed in making my soul mate happy every day of his life. And I want his happiness to only grow with ever passing day. I know...I have high expectations for myself. I couldn't ever describe what David means to me because true love is not something you can define or put into a neat box. It evolves, it consumes, it just is. I wouldn't want to define it anyway. It's just that sometimes my mind can't keep up with my heart/soul. I put so much energy into feeling and not thinking that I sometimes miss out, sometimes I forget, sometimes I fall. And when life smacks you with realizations like I had last night it's like...whoa...where was I...I just got from point A to point J...was I aware throughout B to I? Did I make a difference? Did I make people around me smile or did I neglect something/someone really important as I 'went through the motions’.
I woke up this morning and my eyes were open wider and I remembered to take it all in...appreciate it…and ponder. Plus, the hug I got from my hubby this morning was extra sweet. It's so good to appreciate things BEFORE you lose them. Life has this nifty way of waking you up sometimes...kinda like a computer re-booting or the first jolt of morning caffeine. Remember...deep breaths...and Live a Little...
More than any other daily worry I have is that I won't succeed in making my soul mate happy every day of his life. And I want his happiness to only grow with ever passing day. I know...I have high expectations for myself. I couldn't ever describe what David means to me because true love is not something you can define or put into a neat box. It evolves, it consumes, it just is. I wouldn't want to define it anyway. It's just that sometimes my mind can't keep up with my heart/soul. I put so much energy into feeling and not thinking that I sometimes miss out, sometimes I forget, sometimes I fall. And when life smacks you with realizations like I had last night it's like...whoa...where was I...I just got from point A to point J...was I aware throughout B to I? Did I make a difference? Did I make people around me smile or did I neglect something/someone really important as I 'went through the motions’.
I woke up this morning and my eyes were open wider and I remembered to take it all in...appreciate it…and ponder. Plus, the hug I got from my hubby this morning was extra sweet. It's so good to appreciate things BEFORE you lose them. Life has this nifty way of waking you up sometimes...kinda like a computer re-booting or the first jolt of morning caffeine. Remember...deep breaths...and Live a Little...