is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry.

[la_la_lea]

relaxed, calm, confused, lost, indifferent, wanting, disgust, out of touch, dazed, belonging.

the weather brings bitter thoughts, and feelings; things unwanted, but needed to know i still feel.

and i've realised i am not alone in this. i'd just like to think i am.
for a moment i forget about the very thing that runs through my head every minute of the day.

i begin to notice myself.
in my healing process, for once a true smile graces my face.
things just might be arlight from here on out.
i see you, in the warped vision i always had,
it blurrs. you're different, changed.
ugly, foreign.
it is changing, i'll say adios to the very thing i had called my escape, my relief.
i could feel, you taught me how.
you've served your purpose i believe.
you were quite a lovely pit stop on my path,
but alas its time to move on.
i wouldn't stayed, i was too blind to see.
i was too good for you anyways.