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I don't always say the things I need to say. Dan is a huge part of my life, but it feels weird telling my friends how much I love him. Part of that stems from the fact that our relationship has been an emotional rollercoaster and many of you think I should give up. I don't. I've never felt about anyone the way I do for him. The problems we've come up against have stemmed from our individual stubborn streaks and insecurities. However, he is one of few who point these out to me by words and action, yet they negatively affect other relationships I have. In a way, then, the relationship is very healthy for me and the 'unhealthy' aspects are actually just results of my own dysfunctional social self revealed. I also feel weird saying this because I know that few of you care. Actually, few of you care about anything that I write. Anyway, I love him more deeply than anything and it scares me sometimes (less now). I want everyone to know that.