This Weekend
So Thursday, I had a rehearsal that got cancelled. On my way back to my room, I decided to stay outside where I had service to clean out my voicemails. Rotch beeped in. She asked me where I was. I heard this coming into my other ear, not just the phone. I whipped around and Lindsay, Jessi, and Rotch were fucking coming up the driveway of my school!!!!! They drove all the way from Keene to surprise me and kidnap me. I ran soooo fast into their arms and I was crying and it was so amazing. So I packed as fast as I could and called out of work for the next day and I spent the weekend in Keene. It was quite the party for awhile, but I was forced to quiet down. Overall, a very good weekend, and I can't wait to go back. I really love those girls and I hate leaving them everytime.
This weekend made me realize that I've become a rather selfish person. Little things that I would have thought to do immediately don't come to me until it's too late. I just take and I don't know that I'm giving enough back. I think I've started to take my luck for granted. Of course, I'm not even sure it's luck. I'm not sure why I have so many good things and good people in my life. But I do and I'm not sure that I'm appreciating them as I should. I'm not as aware of other people and their wants and needs. I'm not as sacrificing as I used to be for those I love. I'm always taking care of myself and doing what I want. I think it's this whole mindset that I adopted after Matt and I broke up. I figured being single allowed me to do whatever I wanted and not really consider the consequences. I mean, I'm not a total selfish mess. I don't totally ignore those around me. I just don't take care of them as well as I used to and it bothers me. My mind's become pretty scattered. I'm going to work on it. I am not happy with how I have regressed and I plan on changing myself back.
This weekend made me realize that I've become a rather selfish person. Little things that I would have thought to do immediately don't come to me until it's too late. I just take and I don't know that I'm giving enough back. I think I've started to take my luck for granted. Of course, I'm not even sure it's luck. I'm not sure why I have so many good things and good people in my life. But I do and I'm not sure that I'm appreciating them as I should. I'm not as aware of other people and their wants and needs. I'm not as sacrificing as I used to be for those I love. I'm always taking care of myself and doing what I want. I think it's this whole mindset that I adopted after Matt and I broke up. I figured being single allowed me to do whatever I wanted and not really consider the consequences. I mean, I'm not a total selfish mess. I don't totally ignore those around me. I just don't take care of them as well as I used to and it bothers me. My mind's become pretty scattered. I'm going to work on it. I am not happy with how I have regressed and I plan on changing myself back.