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well, i was talking to megan and she asked me if i asked mike out. i said yes, and shes like what did he say? and im like, he said he doesnt date friends. but then shes like well, he told me that i was a great friend and all but he doesnt really want to date me, plus he said he likes someone else but wont say who. so yeah.. heh now i feel like shit because i really liked him.
ive asked out quite a few people in the last month or so.
ive had the worst luck with relationships lately.. like the following.. moved to naples, never answered me, likes someone else, blocked me, said i was too hot, too ugly, too short, too tall..etc.. im always TOO something..
are there really THAT many things wrong with me? c'mon.. seriously.. I cant be THAT bad..
I want a boyfriend so bad.. im desperate.. well i dont know.. maybe im just tired of no one saying 'i love you' except for my parents, and they have to say it anyway.. tired of no one hugging me when i feel like shit.. tired of no one calling me just to say hi.. tired of not hearing that someone likes me.. tired of not being shown any significant affection..
sad thing is.. my last bf was spenser.. which was kind of a while ago.. (for those of you who dont know, i broke up with spenser in april)
I think im gonna become emo.. heh I dont know.. ive been so depressed lately..
it may seem that I am happy
it may seem that im enjoying every minute of life
it may seem that i love being with a bunch of people at once
it may seem that im having the time of my life
yet in reality
im hating every second of it
and i want to end it all
but I wont because there are still some people who make my life worth living
my main one, being my best friend, Mark.
hes my everything..
but once hes gone.. everything is
I care about him so much though
i love him to an extent as to where
if it came down to it.. right now..
I would sacrifice my life for his.
hes like my brother..
hes always there for me
I wish everyone else could be this way
I wish i had someone who cared about me this much
I would give almost anything
i want a bf really bad.. i swear if anyone(that I actually KNOW and are friends with--not some ugly fucker) asks me out--which i still doubt--i would say yes..
life-span of a fly > my life story
well, i was talking to megan and she asked me if i asked mike out. i said yes, and shes like what did he say? and im like, he said he doesnt date friends. but then shes like well, he told me that i was a great friend and all but he doesnt really want to date me, plus he said he likes someone else but wont say who. so yeah.. heh now i feel like shit because i really liked him.
ive asked out quite a few people in the last month or so.
ive had the worst luck with relationships lately.. like the following.. moved to naples, never answered me, likes someone else, blocked me, said i was too hot, too ugly, too short, too tall..etc.. im always TOO something..
are there really THAT many things wrong with me? c'mon.. seriously.. I cant be THAT bad..
I want a boyfriend so bad.. im desperate.. well i dont know.. maybe im just tired of no one saying 'i love you' except for my parents, and they have to say it anyway.. tired of no one hugging me when i feel like shit.. tired of no one calling me just to say hi.. tired of not hearing that someone likes me.. tired of not being shown any significant affection..
sad thing is.. my last bf was spenser.. which was kind of a while ago.. (for those of you who dont know, i broke up with spenser in april)
I think im gonna become emo.. heh I dont know.. ive been so depressed lately..
it may seem that I am happy
it may seem that im enjoying every minute of life
it may seem that i love being with a bunch of people at once
it may seem that im having the time of my life
yet in reality
im hating every second of it
and i want to end it all
but I wont because there are still some people who make my life worth living
my main one, being my best friend, Mark.
hes my everything..
but once hes gone.. everything is
I care about him so much though
i love him to an extent as to where
if it came down to it.. right now..
I would sacrifice my life for his.
hes like my brother..
hes always there for me
I wish everyone else could be this way
I wish i had someone who cared about me this much
I would give almost anything
i want a bf really bad.. i swear if anyone(that I actually KNOW and are friends with--not some ugly fucker) asks me out--which i still doubt--i would say yes..
life-span of a fly > my life story