btvs, 6x03, "i think i was in heaven" picspam.
THIS SCENE IS STUNNING. SARAH AND JAMES ARE RIDICULOUSLY AWESOME, AND THE WAY IT'S WRITTEN... JUST AGH. HEARTWRENCHING. I LOVE IT.
SPIKE: Buffy.
(Buffy looks up, and sees Spike.)
BUFFY: Spike? It's daylight and you're-
SPIKE: Not on fire? (Looks at the sky.) Sun's low enough. Shady enough here. (Pause.) I was gonna go inside, but I overheard you and the 'Super-friends' exchanging a special moment, and I came over a bit queasy. (Pause.) Say, aren't you leaving a hole in the middle of some soggy group hug?
BUFFY: Just wanted a little time alone.
(Buffy sits down.)
SPIKE: Oh, uh, right then.
(Spike starts to walk away, but stops when he realises that he can't leave the alley without going into the sunlight. He squints at the sky.)
BUFFY: That's okay. I can be alone with you here.
SPIKE: (Smirks.) Thanks ever so.
BUFFY: (Pause.) Right.
SPIKE: (He surveys her.) Buff? Slayer? Are you okay?
(Buffy nods at him, although it's clear that she's lying.)
BUFFY: I'm here. I'm good.
SPIKE: (Approaching her.) Buffy, if you're in... if you're in pain... or if you need anything... or if I can do anything for you...
BUFFY: (Looking down.) You can't.
SPIKE: Well, I haven't been to a hell dimension just of late, but I do know a thing or two about torment.
(Spike sits down beside Buffy.)
BUFFY: I was happy.
(Spike looks at her in confusion.)
BUFFY: Wherever I... was... I was happy. At peace. I knew that everyone I cared about was all right. I knew it. Time didn't mean anything... nothing had form... but I was still me, you know? (Glances at Spike.) And I was warm, and I was loved... and I was finished. Complete. I don't understand about theology or dimensions, or... any of it, really. But I think I was in heaven. And now I'm not. I was torn out of there, pulled out... by my friends. Everything here is... hard, and bright, and violent. Everything I feel, everything I touch... this is Hell. Just getting through the next moment, and the one after that, knowing what I've lost...
(She looks up, and realising Spike is there, stands up. She walks to the end of the shadow, where it meets the sunlight, and pauses, but doesn't look back at Spike.)
BUFFY: They can never know. Never.
(She continues to walk away.)